Finding a Way to Love:Forever Yours (Book two of The Finding Series)

Chapter Eleven

After Annabel leaves the room Sam comes in and gives me a sad smile. "Hey." He says coming to sit beside me.

I turn to look at him and raise my eye brows. "I have one question."

"Yeah?" He asks scooting closer.

I crease my brow in confusion. "Why?" That's all I ask, and I hope he understands what I'm trying to get across.

"Why did I come after you called me?" I nod and he frowns and rests his head in his hands. "Rachel, it's hard to explain. When I heard you on the other line, my heart broke. Plus you scared me." He wipes a tear that has leaked out of his right eye. "And when I found you, God it was scary."

I become interested in the ceiling and don't move my eyes from it while he talks. "Rachel, I'm sorry I've been such a jerk these past months. To be honest, when I invited you to lunch that day, I never expected Paige to show up."

My face snaps to meet his gaze. "What?" My brows high and jaw on the floor.

"I don't know why she came, but when you came in with Lucas on your arm, something in me snapped." He sighs. "Paige really was never more than a friend."

"But why did you kiss her? Why act like she was more?" My breathing is becoming rapid and my hands sweaty. "Why, Sam?"

He takes my hand in his. "What can I say? I was jealous, the girl I loved had someone else on her arm and I did the first thing I could think of. I was going to tell you I loved you that day. I even tried to get Paige to leave."

I stare at him and wish I would have never asked Lucas to come with me that day. "But what about the wedding? You brought Paige that day too."

He rubs his face with one hand. "That was the dumbest thing I have ever done, Rache." He kisses my hand quickly. "When I saw you at the coffee shop with your cousin, I was angry, furious and jealous." He wipes another tear from his eye. "I knew Paige from work, she was someone interested in buying some land beside Sam's and she kept dropping hints that she was interested. So I asked her after I saw you with your cousin. And at the wedding I saw you alone and I realized I made a dumb move."

"Sam..." I trail off.

He shakes his head. "No, now I know I messed up." He brings his chair closer to the bed. His hand cups my cheek. "Cause I love you and I screwed it all up and now you're having Lucas's baby and I'll never have you." He whispers.

I close my eyes and relax at his touch. Should I tell him? Will he leave me? "Sam?" I whisper, my voice on the edge of tears.

He raises his eyes. "Yeah?" His other hand makes its way to my other cheek.

"Um... Please don't hate me." I whisper. He rests his head on mine.

"How could I hate you? I love you, Rache." I breath in a shaky breath.

"Please tell me what's wrong."

I take a deep breath. "Sam, the baby it isn't Lucas's." His eyes grow wide and his shows many different signs.

"Are you saying?" He trails off. All I do is nod.

"Sam I love you too." He smiles.

"Are you sure its mine? But you and Lucas-" I cut him off.

"We never did anything but kiss. Anytime we got close, I saw you and you only. I love you."

His eyes fill with tears. "Rachel Anne, I love you." He closes the distance and kisses me tenderly.

"You won't leave me?" I ask after he pulls away.

He shakes his head. "Why would I leave you?" He kisses me once more then moves down to my belly.