sexting ≫ l.h

twenty-six

i saw 5sos last wednesday (june 1st) and met some of my ibfs im still emo af, but here's a chapter ily

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Today I got the oportunity to sing around brunch time but I couldn't. I had this very shitty feeling in my stomach that wouldn't go away and I knew exactly why. It had nothing to do with Luke of course, well part of it actually did but the other part was my own fault.

Once, I rushed back to my hotel room after yesterday's incident I was supposed to take - what I call - the magic pill, since it removes pain and I have to take three times each week. But, I was too pissed to even function. I didn't even try to look for it and just went to bed with a strong sleeping pill after turning off my phone completely, since all that showed up on my notifications was Luke. From voice mails to snapchats.

I brush my fingers along the strings of my guitar as I sit on the floor with my back resting against the bed. This is the only thing that can distract me from finding the right pill, singing. Besides, I need to film a few videos to finally post, so practicing the songs will be the best.

"We made our mistakes, it's not to late. We had to learn the hard way," I sing softly along the melody of Gold by Sleeping with Sirens, another of my favourite bands, "Bridges will burn, now it's out turn. We had to learn the hard way."

Instantly I'm feeling happier, and not because this is an amazing song, but also because singing relaxes me in every way. Just being disconnected from my problems and taking the time to sing. I keep playing, moving my fingers fast upon the neck of my guitar as I know the song by heart.

"'Cause all we ever want is gold," I raise the volume of my voice, feeling proud of the sound that I hear coming from my own mouth, "We made our mistakes, it's not too late. We had to learn the hard way."

Knock Knock

I clench my jaw, stopping my singing lightly as I shake my head, trying to ignore whoever's at the door. No, nobody is interrupting me. I highly doubt it's important since I don't have anything to do until seven, when I'll meet my mom to talk about tomorrow's dinner. I am not ready to have a family dinner, even if it's small. I just know what's about to come. Anyways, I'm not supposed to meet anyone since I already told Helena I couldn't eat with her and Charlie today either.

Knock Knock

I sigh and go back to my singing, "It's two in the morning, can't seem to find the words for a song."

The familiar sound of Gravity Falls' theme song surrounds my ears, interrupting the very short instrumental pause of the song and I groan. I swear to God, I had turned my phone off, fuck. I leave the guitar carefully on the floor as I get up slowly. My body hurts, my back and hips are aching very bad and I have no idea which one of the pills will help this since I missed one of them. Can my day get any worse already?

Never mind, it can actually. I groan once more as Luke's name fills my screen. I've been ignoring this boy for the entire morning and he still won't give up. I ignore his call, making his name vanish from my screen but still he is still everywhere. Every single text from the blonde boy. I sigh and unlock my phone checking a few of them that he had just sent.

lukey: agnes please talk to me

lukey: i know your in your room please open the door ! :-(

lukey: i need to explain myself i'm so sorry

I roll my eyes as I go back to my spot, sitting on the floor as I decide to type.

me: i'm not in my room

lukey: yes you are

lukey: i asked annabelle and she told me