I'm Fine

Imaginary Friend?

We were far from anyone
here above the clouds
Not "home" where there's no fun
And people scream so loud

I remember when I used to cry
about the things you said
But with others help I learned to fly
Yet only to find you dead

I soon found myself missing you
Despite your twisted words
Unfortunately, I didn't know what to do
To make your voice once more heard

So I sort help from those people
The ones that told me you were just in my head
They told me I was better without you
And having you back is what I should dread

So yes, I still persisted
To find you and bring you back
There was something about you that I needed
And I knew I was on the right track

For whispers seemed to ripple
Dance about in my mind
Not thoughts, but quiet words
Comforting me at times

Then one day, a mighty roar!
Of yells and cheers and... screams?
It seemed like a miracle for only a moment
Before they turned yet again mean

Slowly I began to see you
At first shadows in a small place
Then a figure, turning clearer
Then finally your face

Your eyes so dark and inviting
Your touch cold yet warm
Even though you were back and here for me
I knew seeing you wasn't the norm

For many people told me I was insane
To have you by my side
You tried to speak up, yell at them
Yet no one else heard your cries.

So again, your sadness wore on me
And I quickly felt more down
And as it clearly showed me
It only takes a few tears to drown

How I wished you gone again
This life was killing me
My bottle of pills.. I need them back!
They can set me free

I went about the days.. weeks... months...
Ignoring your changing voice
And provoking words
I finally got that bottle back!
And once again silence was heard

Rest in peace, my friend
Rest in peace until the end
It will take time for these wounds to mend
Stay silent.. as you must.