I just want to appreciate how far I've come, and share it with you all. I've just been thinking about recovery a lot so you know what let's do this.
me 6(ish) months ago: self harming, anorexic, depressed, suicidal, paranoid at all times, constantly suffering from dysphoria, believed everything I did was garbage and hated myself beyond belief.
me now: clean for about 6 months, eating well, still a little depressed but getting much better, I have my will to live, I've been able to mute some of my paranoid thoughts, I've gotten better about dealing with dysphoria, I've been able to create things and think they're good and have been able to gain a little self confidence.
I just think about how different I am from how I was not that long ago. it's crazy. and you know what, I'm getting better. someday I will be happy. no matter what's thrown at me I'm gonna be o-fucking-kay, and so are all of you. if I can get better, you can. stay alive (:
