My mom keeps telling me that I can tell her anything. She says that I shouldn't be afraid that she will judge me or punish me.
Sometimes her first words when I tell her I am going to have a panic attack are; "no we are not doing this right now." Hoping that will stop it.
It makes it come faster and stronger.
When I actually have a panic attack she will come in and try to comfort me. Sometimes I don't want to be touched or have someone see me. So, I push her away.
After my attack I will go see her. She thinks it is her fault, says she wishes I was happy. Then cries.
I am the reason she cries.
It make more panic attacks come.
Instead I lock myself up, all alone.
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Anxiety One-shots
PoetryThis story may be triggering to anyone with anxiety and possibly depression. It will be describing how my anxiety feels, and different ways I try to overcome it. Disclaimer: this is only my personal experience and does NOT apply to everyone!
