Anxiety One-shots

Insane, but you won't help

Do you ever feel insane? Mental? Crazy?

During crashes sometimes I feel like that, I'll just sit and stare at nothing.

Sway back and forth.

Laugh at nothing.

Then flinch because something just doesn't feel right.

It happens to often to be normal.

I went to a special clinic to talk about my mental state.

I explained everything.

They ignored everything wrong with me and focused on three things.

-When I'm not in a crash or crashing my energy and emotions are up.

-I can prevent attacks briefly so I don't offend or worry anyone/ do things that would normally make me crash immediately if it means helping someone else.

-I only need someone to talk to.

They help people figure stuff out about why it is happening.

I read psychology books and files online about that.

I am partially insane sometimes, frequently stop, lie down then proceed to stay there while I am not connected to the outside world through any senses, have both panic and anxiety attacks, have a panic disorder and (even though I haven't been diagnosed because I won't let myself to save my mother the pain of knowing that I've been diagnosed with it) depression.

I have self harmed and sometimes don't eat because my crash won't let me feel hunger.

I was told I'm not messed up enough to have sessions at this clinic.

This isn't the first clinic to tell me this.

I'm messed up and insane.

I looked for help.

You won't help me.

DON'T BLAME ME.