Sometimes I just don't want to talk.
I could be down or just decide I don't want to communicate verbally.
I want to learn sign language for those times but my family and friends don't know it so I can't communicate with them anyway.
I could be with friends or alone, sometimes it's when I'm happy.
I know there is such a thing as selective mute, but my family probably wouldn't support it, they get upset if I don't respond.
Sometimes I'm very loud and open.
I just wish I could have a sign that says "I'm non-verbal today."
I don't mean it to offend anyone especially my friends and family, I just don't want to talk.
Please don't make me talk if I don't want to or can't.
I'll type or write what I want to say just not talk.
I'd never tell my friends or family "I don't want to talk today," incase they get upset or feel awkward, but if they asked sometimes I'd say yes and hope they would let me be non-verbal that day or until I want to talk again.
If I was supported I would be a selective mute, my family just wouldn't let me or believe me.
I just don't want to talk.
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Anxiety One-shots
PoetryThis story may be triggering to anyone with anxiety and possibly depression. It will be describing how my anxiety feels, and different ways I try to overcome it. Disclaimer: this is only my personal experience and does NOT apply to everyone!