Heart Shaped Sesame Seed, Cool
“What if…?”
This question scares a lot of people. Well, simply because it introduces whole new reasons why you should or should not pursue the choice you’ve already made. “What if it goes wrong?”or “What if this goes as planned?, then the rest of my life will be changed.” These questions are so confusing that we can’t go on life without thinking about the things that might have happened in some other parallel universe. It’s also so frustrating that we worry sometimes and in other times, we expect too much also. For me, the what ifs in life don’t scare me. It’s a part of life. Yes, we should worry, yes, we should expect- if we done our part in making our lives worth living.
For an 18-year-old, I had my whole life figured out and I’ve made my plans down to the last detail. Melissa Madison, Journalist and Broadcaster, it’s perfect. I could imagine that byline on every local and national paper, my name on national TV. It’s so close I could taste it. I just have to finish my internship that my sweet, sweet mother’s cousin’s friend gave me. I love family so so much especially times like these when you need a rocking internship in the Los Angeles Daily Tribune! Of course, I love them not just because of that reason, I love them because they’re family. Awwwww!
I could talk about this whole Los Angeles Daily Tribune internship for days, but I rather not bore with the most awesomest thing that has ever happened in my boring life. After this, I’ll attend college and take up Journalism and Broadcasting, and nothing, I mean nothing can stop me from achieving my dream. Even if One Direction becomes your worst and best discovery? Even if I fall in love with more than one of them? I guess those are two exceptions, I think?
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High school and my internship were a lot to handle. I didn’t even know how I got to juggle the two, well, the internship wasn’t too pressurizing for me as it didn’t need me a lot. I just have to attend to what Janice wanted me to do. Janice was my boss, and mentor if you’d call it. She was kinda cool if you get to know her. She even insisted that I shouldn’t call her Ma’am or Ms. Olewood. She said it was making her look too old for the job. I wish she I could be just like her. She managed to stay fit and to easily put it, HOT. And to top it all off, she has the second highest position in this press. I can’t believe she’s single, haha.
Janice told me days ago that I had gotten better in my writing. I took the liberty of showing her my works in the school press and she even commented on the fact that I have the looks to be on TV. I was so excited and flattered also, not that I cared to be on TV for that single reason. I was going to be on Broadcast Media because I want to be a public figure where people could trust me to bring them the right information and facts that could help them in their daily lives. Wow, that was so pretentious! Haha. I wanted to be on TV because I wanted to do what I want and be famous for it. It’s as simple as that. No need for sugar coating. Haha.
Am I a bad person for having that ideal? For starters, I’m not a bad person. I just take things seriously s I could bring myself to my dream faster. I think that determination is getting me away from my inner party-girl self. I guess I’ve missed out on some things. I still had my friends though.
The bell rang. “Lunch break, I love you so much!” I guess that came out a little louder than expected. Everyone in the classroom erupted into soft giggles. That wasn’t even funny. I’m serious. All this thinking about my dreams and stuff is getting me hungary!
“Let’s go Lou, before my stomach starts to talk to me. I have to feed him stat!”
“Okay, okay, I just have to fix my things.” Such a tidy, tidy girl this one. I wonder why.
