The Helpless Mate

Chapter 5

Alexandra's POV

"Replacement. I'm a replacement... Goddess how could I be so stupid....?"

Alexandra?

SHUT UP! Just shut the HELL up!

I know you're not in a good mood but-

NOT IN A GOOD MOOD?! THE PERSON I THOUGHT WAS MY MATE JUST HIT ME! AFTER YOU CONVINCED ME THINGS WERE GOING TO GET BETTER, THEY JUST GOT WORSE!

Alexandra, I only said that because I thought he was our mate. Our mate wouldn't have hit us.

Whatever, I'm done.

Done? What do you mean done?

I'm done caring. If other people don't care, why should I?

Are you.... are you gonna kill yourself?!

If it was just me I would, but you're here too. I wouldn't do that to you. You've been the only friend I've had since.....

I know, but you can't stop caring.

Watch me.

I sighed as I reluctantly got up from Jason's bed. I slowly made my way to the bathroom connected to the room. I turned on the shower and the water immediately came out hot. I haven't had a warm shower since my parents died.

Shaking off the ghosts of my past, I pull his shirt over my head and toss it in the corner of the room before stepping in the shower. I let out a soft moan as the water hits my face and runs down my back.

I guess this isn't that bad, I mean it's a step up from my life as the pack maid. I've always done this weird thing to make stuff seem more bare able. I just make a list of the good things.

-only one person will beat me
-he'll most likely only do it in private
-alphas are very busy people
-people will respect me more, hopefully
-he will probably forget about my existence from time to time
-he only hit me because I disobeyed
-this house is so big I can probably find somewhere to hide from him
-HOT WATER!

I slightly giggle at the last item on my list. Although this is no time to laugh. Well, this is better than what I would have expected. This is better than any other option I had. Run, which would have made a rogue and I would have most likely have died or been killed, or stay and continue being tortured till the day I die. This isn't my home.. it hasn't been since my parents died and it won't ever be my home again.

"Little girl terrified..." I hum as the water runs down my back. "She'd leave her room, if only bruises would heal..... a home is no place to hide..... she's breaking from the pain that she feels...."

"Nice set of lungs you got there," Jason's comment on my singing comes from outside of the shower's sliding door, did I mention the glass is completely see-through?

"Thank you Alpha Jason..." I mumble as my eyes drift in his direction.

"Anytime, my 'mate'. Mind if I join you?" A smirk is plastered on Jason's face as he lets his shorts fall to the ground.

"I-I was just g-getting out," I quickly get out of the shower and grab a waiting towel off the sink, then wrap it around my naked body.

"Suit yourself. You're only delaying the inevitable," Jason mumbled as he hopped into the steaming shower.

"Alpha Jason? Do you... have anything that I could wear...?" I never really did have many articles of clothing, but at least they were something.

"Why not just go naked?" Jason muses with that irritating smirk still stuck on his face.

"I'd rather not Alpha Jason..." I keep my gaze on anything and everything except him.

"Whatever. You can borrow a shirt of mine for now, I'll have someone drop off some clothes for you," Jason sounds somewhat annoyed, I'm guessing because I didn't want to take a shower with him.

"Thank you Alpha Jason.." I mutter before exiting the bathroom.

I make my way to his bed and carefully sit down on the perfectly made bed. I sigh as I bury my face in my hands. Goddess... why me? What have I done to deserve this?

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Delaying the inevitable... that's what he said... he's gonna make me mate with him. I really wish I could save my virginity for my mate... my poor mate. They'll be without a real mate, just like me... I wonder what my real mate is like. I know I'll probably never even meet him, let alone be with him.

Maybe my mate is a sensitive and caring wolf... maybe he is searching for me right now. Perhaps he is in the pack. Maybe he's tall and masculine. Maybe he's got beautiful dark chestnut hair with dark brown eyes to match. Maybe he smells like sweet chocolates. Maybe he's smelt me and he's on his way here. Maybe he's more powerful than Jason. Maybe he'll take me away from this cruel life.

Maybe... he would actually love me....