The Boy With The Whiskers; Phan

You Needed That.

I feel hands press softly on my shoulders, and a warmth against my skin. "Phil, keep walking."

I turn my head, still nothing there. Not a thing.

I feel a wave of distress, realizing that I might not ever see Dan again.

My thoughts are interrupted by a body pressing on mine; a hug.

arms wrap around my back, but I don't see any hands, but I don't worry because I really need this hug.

I try to turn my head, but I can't move. A voice causes my ears to ring, and I whip my head around to see nothing but a piece of brown quickly disappear. 

familiar brown hair.

"You needed that."

I stand up, and start running around, screaming out "Dan". No reply.

I look around rocks and trees, and no sign of anyone being here aside from myself.

I sit back at the creek, thinking about this whole thing.

Is it worth it?

Is Dan worth it?

What am I saying? Of course he is.

What is he's somewhere better, with someone who's not me.

Am I even worth it?

Did he leave me?

For someone else? Someone who's ten times better than me?

I look far into the streets, seeing a couple walking hand in hand.

I feel tears form in my eyes.

Did he find the perfect girl?

I start to realize why he left.

He was always tired- tired from having to film to keep everyone happy, tired from the posts stating that he's gay when he wasn't sure, tired from all the stress and pressure of even being in the same room with me, tired of having to look me in the eyes and say he was fine, tired from pretending, tired of me.

Tired of pretending he loved me..

And the worst part is that I believed him...

I tremble violently.

Is this the end of Dan and Phil?