Oh Look It's Stuff Nobody Cares About

story idea.

I don't know where to start.

Lately I've noticed how much of a fake bitch I've been.

Its not even funny how fucking careless I act when I see my friends in pain. Or when they need me. Its like I'm lying through my teeth and giving half-assed advice.

And I just don't care.

Its not fair.
To them.

Yet why do I do it? Its not what true friends do...

But it gives me this feeling of
Well
It makes me feel better.

Like I no longer have to carry the weight of other peoples problems on my damn shoulders.

Its sickening to see myself. To hear myself. Say these things.

I don't even bother to check on all my friends. Its like I stopped caring about anyone but myself.

And it sucks to know I've already lost friends because of it.

But frankly I feel like I'll stop caring about that later on too.

I know i should be worried.
But all I can feel right now is numb.

Its like seeing myself change into someone i'd never want to be.

And even if I don't want to admit this... And its wrong to feel this way....

its kinda fun.

That was not me. I repeat. that was not me. It was me trying to come up with the beginning of a story. Idk where its headed but i kinda like it

- G