Radom Thoughts

What is this?

What is this?
What is this feeling I get when he's around?
Why do I hate someone that I barely know?
Is it because he takes you away?
Because you never talk to me when he's around?
Maybe it's because he took my one and only best friend.
Maybe it's jealousy.
Because you have a boy that loves you (or so he says) and you chased away the one boy that liked me back.
If only you knew what it felt like.
To feel as if you life is being torn apart piece by piece, while everyone else's are falling into place.
To feel like all eyes are on you, but not one is friendly.
Maybe that's what it is.
You tell me all the cute couple moments. (it's all you talk about anymore)
You can't see it but it hurts when you mention it.
You think it's all fun and games
When you bring up old crushes,
But what you don't see is it tears me apart
Knowing that I was never good enough for them.
Did you ever think that maybe that's why I cry when I'm all alone?
Or why I hide so much.
Especially when he's around!
What is this feeling,
And how did I rid myself of it?