It's been two weeks since warped ended and I've grown so close to my brother. He's getting a lot better which makes me happy. Chelsea and I talk about bands way more than we probably should but its fun remembering the good times I had. we don't talk about BMTH much which makes me kind of happy I just don't want her to feel like she can't talk about get favorite band. she doesn't listen to them either, she listens to mainly YMAS, SS, & OM&M which is fine because I love them.. I just-
"Hey mom wants you" Chelsea said sympathetically. My mom has "beat" me yet but she has hit me and makes it damn obvious she hates me. I just can't leave again... Chelsea is going to live with our grandparents this year because they're a photography high school near them she really wants to go to. I'm happy for her but I'm going to miss her like crazy. I walked downstairs and my mom only told me I need to take care of the others "while she's gone". she's been fucking the mailman since before I left.
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*one week later*
"I'm going to miss you holy hell" I said with Chelsea in my arms
"Call me if you need anything" I added kissing her forehead. she only smiled and got on the plane. on my way home all I could think about was how the guys haven't been answering my calls.. it's weird. it makes me think, what's going on in Sheffield?"
I pulled into our driveway, when I stepped inside I heard my mother screaming, I couldn't make out what she was saying, all I heard was
"dare.... set up.... exboyfriend.... depressed fuck..... deserve.... Oliver"
Oliver?!
I ran up stairs and my heart stopped completely...
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Lol srry ill update later mofos I just like cliffhangers heh anyway I'm back! I feel a lot better now if you care. my friend still has cancer and isn't talking to me but I guess I'm kind of forcing the depression down now.. I owe so much to Jordan Fish though. I wouldn't be here without him. if you're wondering what I mean, I sent him a DM the night I was going to commit and he replied basically saying that's silly and I have so much to live for. it was so kind of him to reply especially because it was the night before his wedding, the day I went back to see my father.
