End of summer

Chapter 20:Wedding

Maya's point of view

I didn't know if it was gonna get better.

If life was gonna get better.

I didn't know if I would ever be able to forget Lucas,what did he to Riley

Leave her alone and let her get drunk.And in her first year of Highschool too.

Riley Matthews,Who used to be a Happy dancing sunflower

Is now depressed.

I tried to help her,we take her to groups,therapist

Yet she doesn't smile anymore,She isn't happy anymore.

And I can't help knowing that almost all of this,wasn't Lucas fault.

It was mine.

I wanted to blame Lucas.So much,But I felt Riley,I fought with her for stupid reasons!i was responsible of this,This is all my fault.

It's always my fault.Always.

I'm standing infront of the mirror of the bathroom,Watching what I have become.

The worst friend ever?...Probably.

I sighed and went out of the bathroom,a few more minutes until it's time.

I only seat a few seats away from Lucas and Farkle.And Riley.

I can't face her,I bet she has already given up on me,lost all hope for me.I want her too,Hope is for Suckers.

But why was I sitting away from Farkle?

Because I still remember that night..New years.And that's all you need to know.

Now that I see it,I can't face any one other then Zay right now.Whos sitting near the food and waiting for the wedding to begin so he could start eating every piece of everything.

The wedding starts.I barley look up from my phone until I saw my mother come in and I smiled.

I was suppose to be the maid of honor,but I passed.I didn't want met father to see me.Cause unfortunately,What he said was true,He WAS here.Sitting far away with his family.My half siblings Watching me from the distance,The cringe was real.I looked away and smiled at my mom when she walked down the aisle.

The wedding began.And I couldn't help but smile the whole time.

Shawn watched me from where he and my mom were and smiled at me.I smiled back.I was looking at my new father,And I couldn't wait to have him in my life forever.

Time flew by and I barley blinked.The party was fun but now it was over.

I was standing near one of the doors when Lucas came towards me.I wanted to run.But somehow I didn't.I just stood there and watched him,

"What do you want,huckleberry?"I asked,but in a serious manner.

Lucas looked at me and nodded,"I know you're kinda mad at me right now-"

I chuckled,"kinda"I mocked and crossed my arms,"I'm not,kinda,mad huckleberry,I'm furious!!!"

"Maya"Lucas said and sighed,"I-I know,and if there is any way I could make it up to you,I-ll-"

"No Lucas"I said angrily and growled,"there is no way anyone could make up for everything that happened to precious sunshine Riley matthews,No one!!!!"

"Maya-"

"This is just about me,Lucas!"I said,"it's about Riley too,she's damaged now,she needs therapy and little groups,she's depressed,she's no longer Riley Matthews and I can't live life like that!"

"I know,Maya"

"What do you know!"I snapped and crossed my arms again."Just..Please leave me alone,Lucas"

Lucas looked away and nodded.But before he could,he looked at me again and suddenly I was against the wall.I took a big breath before feeling Lucas's lips on me again.I liked that feeling.

It went on for a while with me grabbing his collar and pushing him closer to me.He smiled against my lips.But then I realized what we were doing,infront of everyone.Or Atleast a few people.

"Lucas,Stop!"I said and pushed him away."Stop!"

"Why!"he whined.Did he just forget the whole converstaion we had...Did he just come here to Make out?I really hope not.But I'm mad anyway.I pushed him and stomped away.

All I knew now was that I'm scared of what's gonna happen next.

In junior Year.

What will happen to me? I already know I'm going to change.

But what will happen to every one else too.

For the mean time,I just wanted to go home.

It's summer.Schools over.

And I had enough drama this season.I can't hope anymore.

Hope is for suckers.