End of summer.New school,well, level of school,the gang is now moving onto high school after summer break.With Riley and Maya confused about their feelings,let's just say.Hope is for suckers.
I didn't feel like going dress shopping anymore.Too much dresses,even thought it was the last dress we had to buy.The wedding was in a few days...And my mom was all over the place.She was dragging me from store to store,Getting me new shoes,Hair ties and pins. It was all too much. And she knew that damn well.
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So far I had to choices.But since they were dresses,I didn't really give a Fuck.
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I just couldn't concentrate As well as I used to.That doesn't involve paying attention in class Tho. I sighed and looked around the store.Wanting Riley to be here,by my side.Ever since I discovered her Problem and talked to her in the bay window...I.... I couldn't think straight.Now knowing what she had to go through for months,and yet,being the best friend I was!(sarcasm noted)I never knew. *FlashBack*
"Did you,once, think about....Committing Suicide?"I asked Riley.She looked at me and smiled.She laughed and shook her head,for a minute I was relieved.. I could've lost her.. "I never once thought of committing suicide!"She laughed..."Not once,I thought about committing suicide Every Day....All the time..Because no one needs me" "Don't you dare say that Riley"I said,My eyes turning sad,"I do..I need you Riley" "But all those people online,Maya"Riley said."They really make you feel like crap-" "It doesn't matter what they think of you"I told her,taking her hand in time,"It only matters what you think of yourself and what you think of yourself is the only thing you need to worry about"I tried to convince her to love herself.I honestly thought it would never work.Whatever I say to her,Riley will never believe me.
"Is this how it feels like...Maya"Riley then asked me...I looked at her with concern. "Is this how you feel...All the time..Sad..Worthless...Like everyone hates you for being yourself?" "That shouldn't bring you down,Riley"I sighed,"You have a great life!..You have a family that cares about you..You have great friends..perfect grades...why would you ever think differently about that by one comment" "It wasn't one comment,Maya"Riley yelled,"It was a million comments,and they were all true!!!!!!!" She went into the bathroom,I stood there sitting on the bay window.And sighed What have I d-I heard a scream...I went to knock on the bathroom door I heard more screams,then I couldn't take it anymore I opened the bathroom door,finding Riley on the floor with her hair wet Not with water But with blood. "RILEY!!!"I yelled in panick.I threw myself on her and tried to take away the bottle filled sigh pills.Riley looked at me with her eyes wet. "GO AWAY!!!"She yelled at me.Shoving me aside as she went to get the scattered pills on the floor.I rushed to her side,Slapping the pills away.It went on for a while before she stood up "STOP!"Riley yelled."CANT YOU SEE MAYA..IVE BEEN KEEPING THIS PILLS FOR DAYS..EVERYDAY I WONDERED HOW IT WOULDN'T MATTER WITH ME GONE!" She yelled and tried to take the pill,I jumped on her back and she feel on the floor. "Riley stop!"I yelled."MR.MATTHEWS HELP!!!!" And from that point on,the Matthews came to the door.Mr.Matthews grabbed Riley away from me.They tried to calm her down while she screamed in pain,for some reason."STOP...There's no reason for me to live!!!!!" "All I ever did is ruin everyone's lives!"Riley continued,looking at me."AND IM SORRY" And from that point on,we tried to get help for Riley.Theraphy,Groups.Doctors. Something told me she wouldn't recover for a while. I wouldn't be able to see her for months.Years maybe... And it could've never happened.If only I never agreed to take her to that party. *End of flashback*
It all lead me to punching that idiot in the face.One day I sucked up enough courage to go after Billy.It was a Monday.Everything went wrong on Mondays. Especially since I humiliated Billy while the whole school watched.I got detention.But it was worth it. Why wouldn't you want to punch the jerkiest boy/Boyfriend for humiliating you're best friend?..He made it possibly,I heard he keep reminding people about Riley's accident. He made hate groups.He send mean tweets to her.Making many people do the same. I should've listen to Riley.She knew what was best for me. I hate being stubborn.
"Maya...Are you alright Baby?"My mom said as we went out of the store.I shook my head. "Yeah...I'm okay....I'm always Okay"I said as a rush of disappointment went through me I honestly didn't know how I felt right now.Maybe I did change. "I know you're not,Maya"My mom said and hugged me."You know whatever happened to Riley was never your fault-" "Keep saying that until I actually believe it"I said and sighed.Me and mom walked all the way home.I stopped once I saw a figure standing near the door.Knocking repeatedly I dropped my bags and hide behind my mom."Don't question,just hide me..he's dangerous" My mom sighed.She got near him and tapped his shoulder.He turned around.
"Oh...Hi"He said awkwardly.My Mom waved awkwardly too. "I reckon you came to talk to Maya"My Mom asked and moved to the door.Opening it with a key.I stood there like a statue "Yes..But...I came to wish you luck too"He said,My mom nodded and disappeared into our apartment. He turned to me and crossed my arms. "what are you doing here?"I asked.Waiting for a good Awnser. "I want to talk to you-" "Well I don't"I said quickly,"Now,if you excuse me,I have way better things to do then-" "Maya,Please-"My dad said and took my arm.I let out a gasp,slapping the hand off "Maya...Last time we talked...I-I didn't reall-" "Shut up!"I yelled at him,And no,I wasn't going to cry.I'm going to be strong. "I Don't want to hear your stupid voice,I don't even want to look at your ugly face!" "Maya please-" "Leave me alone!!!!"someone tapped my shoulder "What!"I yelled and turned around.Josh. "Woah!"He said and looked at the scene,"looks like I came at a bad time,huh?"
"Maya...I just want you to know..We are coming to your moms wedding"He said "Who's..We?"I asked quickly "My family-"He trailed off,"You'r stepbrothers and sisters...Were moving here to New York,I thought about what you said...Yes..I was..Horrible,I shouldn't have left you..but I'm gonna be here now..to support you..I'm gonna be here for you-" "You're gonna be here for me?"I cried,"You never should have left!" "This is a really bad time"Josh interrupted "I'm gonna go"my dad said,"see you at the wedding..." And he left.Again.
I ran my hands through my blonde hair in frustration "Maya-" "Get the fuck away from me Josh!!!!"I yelled at him and uncontrollably..Slapped him. He chuckled,"Guess I deserved that..didn't I?" I growled and went inside my apartment.Shutting the door behind me and went up to my room.
