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Gee had only been gone a few hours, and I was sitting in my bed tapping my perfectly manicured nails against my laptop, contemplating on whether or not I should make that trip to go visit my mom and brother or not .. I slowly opened my computer and clicked on my brothers message !!
"Whats the address ?"
He sent me the address .. I wrote it down then closed my laptop .. Grabbing my diamond necklace once again I could feel butterflys start to form in my stomach .. I started thinking of things I wanted to ask .. The majority of the questions were for my mom .. I felt a lump forming in my throat and immediately swallowed pushing it back down !! Every since the day I had walked out of that apartment door I had been building walls .. preparing myself for anything I would facr outside of my moms care .. I shook my head thinking about how funny shit is, you think you have it all figured out but life hands you something totally different than you expected !! I wasn't expecting to be put up in a mansion & treated like a princess when I was taken but I did .. Since day 1 Gee gave me everything I needed and ever wanted !! But .. it also brought out my inner demons .. thoughts, and feelings nobody would've ever thought existed !! Pain kind of does that to you ..
"What you doin ?" Pimp walked in my room
"Do y'all ever knock ?" I asked folding my arms
"On what door ? Shit I thought it was safe to come in !!" He laughed
"Whatever .. what you want ?" I turned my attention to the tv
"Gee told me to keep a eye on you while he was gone .. told me to tell you to let me know if you needed anything !!"
I sighed "I don't need anything !! So you can go now !!"
"Aight ..just holla" he turned around walking away
I watched him walk out of my bedroom and listened until I heard the front door close .. I figured now was the time since Gee had Pimp babysitting .. I knew he would be back and I didn't know when so I needed to leave and be back before he made it ..
I slipped on some flip flops ..put my sundress on and put my hair in a messy bun ..
Gee kept all of his car keys inside of the cars so that part was easy .. I typed in the address into the GPS and I took off ..
The drive felt like it took forever .. I was nervous which really wasnt even like me .. Nobody made me nervous except for Gee .. but this time was a whole nother ball game ..
When I pulled up to the complex .. The first thing I noticed was the traces of crime scene tape wrapped around the trees .. I smirked as I had a small flash back, blood stained the concrete of the area I shot Tevin .. and just like before I still didn't feel a damn thing !!
I got out of the car putting my shades on .. I didn't want anyone to recognize me and call the cops .. Gee's gun was inside of my purse which I clutched tightly to my side just in case anything went sour I would be ready !! I wasn't afraid of a round 2 ..
De ja'vu hit me as I walked down the hall to my old apartment .. Kids were running up and down the stairs and it made me remember how I used to do the exact same thing .. I hesitantly knocked on the door then looked around .. I had to admit I was paranoid & for allot of reasons ..
I expected Tay to open the door but instead it was my mom .. Shock was written all over her face when she opened the door, she stared at me with her hand covering her mouth for what felt like hours before Tay came to the door ..
"You made it" he said standing next to mom
I smiled not really knowing what to say nor do !!
"Can I hug you ?" Tay asked
I nodded and closed my eyes as I embraced him .. I had missed my brother & I couldn't lie it felt good to hug him again !!
"Baby .. I'm so sorry !!" My mom finally spoke as she broke down crying
I watched her as she broke down to her knees and cried her eyes out .. I didn't really want to care but that weakness for my mom was still there .. I bent down and got on the floor with her and asked her the one question I always wanted to know !!
"Why didnt you ever come for me ?" I asked staring her in her eyes
"I didnt have that kind of money Tia !! Your daddy owed over 10 grand !!" She replied grabbing my hand
"Well mama why are yoi still with him ?! He gave your child up to complete stranger because of a debt that he owed .. you didn't know if I was ok or not.. lucky for me Gee treated me nicely but mama what if I wouldn't have been so lucky ?!"
She shook her head still crying "Tia im sorry !!"
"Why are you still with him ma ?"
"You know how he is !!"
"Leave him .. !! If he doesn't die in that damn hospital leave him ma .. !!"
I looked up at Tay and he helped me up ..
"We missed you Tia .."
"I want you to stay here with us !!" My mom said
"Ma .. I'm fine where I am .. I'll still come visit !!"
"But them the same people that kidnapped you T" Tay said confused
"But .. they like family now .. I'd rather just stay there !!"
Tay hesitantly nodded at me .. confused ..
Then as I looked past Tay I seen Gee's face on the news and my heart dropped ..
