As You Are (Kim Taehyung Story)

Chapter 16

I really wanted to shut my eyes after those words left my mouth but I don't want the girl to think that I am just making everything up just because I wanted to stand up for Taehyung. But at the same time, I really wanted to avoid all possible eye contacts with Taehyung because I was embarrassed. So, what I did? I kept on staring at the girl until she looked away. 

"No no no! Don't look away! keep talking to me! keep arguing with me until I can cover everything up!!!" I screamed, internally. But unfortunately, that was just something that I hope could have happened but now, in reality, I have Kim Taehyung sitting in front of me, staring right into my soul. He looked taken aback. I took the deepest breath ever and told him to pretend that he did not hear those words. Right there, I knew that I have ruined everything and he might not even wanna meet me ever again. I'm accepting the fate. I sighed. 

"Hyejin-ah... Don't be embarrassed. I do too.."

WHAT? 

"But Hyejin, let's not rush alright? We should really get to know much more about each other, be sure of our feelings before we get ourselves into anything" Taehyung continued. 

I nod in agreement. I totally agreed with everything that he said because I am not certain of my feelings. I am not sure if I am that ready to fall in love again. I need to be sure of my heart and feelings. 

"But, there's one more thing..."

"What is it?" my heart is beating so fast because I have no idea what is he going to say next.

"I... I need... I need to be on a good terms with Jooheon first. I don't want to be having to meet you secretly. I don't want to have you and jooheon getting distant because of me. I value and respect you guys' friendship so much. I don't want us to be dating but having Jooheon strongly disapproving it. I want us, to date, with full of peaceful and happiness. You understand what I'm trying to say, right?"

I nod. "But, how are you going to fix things up with Jooheon? He can't even stand the sight of you now.." 

I don't know why, but that made Taehyung laugh. Seeing him laughing relaxes me so much. Honestly, I have no idea if it's going to work. Once Jooheon dislikes something or someone, its really difficult for him to be okay with them. 

We walked back home afterwards and to our surprise, Jooheon, was there, outside of my house. "So, is this your definition of "having some alone time"? You lied. You told me that you are not going to meet him, you told that you just need to go out, alone, to relax your mind, but why did you have to lie to me?  I waited for you here like and fool. You have never lied to me. Did this guy made you lie to me?"

"Jooheon, I didn't mean to lie to you. I- I just bumped into him while walking back up. That's all"

"Yeah, sure. That explains the same cup of coffee you guys are holding"

I was nervous. I was scared that Jooheon and Taehyung might ended up fighting again. I stayed close to Taehyung. 

"I see that you've stood closer to him. Why? You're scared? You're scared of your own best friend?"

"Jooheon, calm down" Taehyung suddenly said. "Look man, I really don't wanna argue or start a fight with you. I just, need your understanding. I'm not the kind of guy you think I am. I-"

"Forget it" Jooheon said and stomped off. I felt really bad. For lying to him and making him feel like he has been fooled by his own best friend. I chased after him.

"LEE JOOHEON" I shouted. "STOP THERE". Jooheon was walking so fast that it made me breathless chasing after him. He stopped in the middle. But if only, he had stopped, while walking along the pavement.