As You Are (Kim Taehyung Story)

Chapter 20

Just like everyone else, I'm stressing about what to wear. But unlike almost everyone else, I don't really spend that much time getting ready. I don't really wear make up that much so it will only take me about half an hour or so to get ready. Since I have no idea where Taehyung is going to bring me to, I decided to just wear jeans with a nice top. Dress is definitely not something I would wear, unless it is for special occasions. 12.50pm. 10 minutes before Taehyung is going to "pick" me up. I walked around the house in circle because I was nervous and I don't even know why am I so nervous. It's not the first time I am going out with Tae. Or maybe, I am nervous because this is our first official date. 

Right at 1pm, Taehyung knocked on my door. 

"You do know that there's a bell that you can ring right?"

"Yeeeeees, I know but I still prefer to knock. It sounds nicer"

I rolled my eyes and just let out a small laugh, hoping to ease my nervousness a little bit. 

"You look, beautiful" he smiled. 

Ohmygod, where am i suppose to hide myself. I am so embarrassed now. I can feel my cheeks being on fire. I hid behind the door.

"There's no need to be all shy about it. You might need to get use to it because I can feel myself complementing you a lot just because you are you" He pulled me out from behind the door and we went out. 

"Where are we going?" 

"To the moon"

"Oh, really? Why didnt you tell me first that we are going to the moon so that I could atleast pack some shirts because I won't be coming back here"

"No, you have to come back. I'll need you to be here"

Breatheeee Hyejin. "Okay but seriously, Kim Taehyung, where are we going?"

He was just smiling.

"What are you smiling at!? Answer meeeeeeee!"

"I like that"

"Like what?!"

"You calling me by my full name. Oh! I also like it when you call me Tae. You're the first person who ever calls me that"

"Since you like me calling you by your full name and also Tae, I shall not call you any of that. Should I call you "Hyung" instead?" I joked. 

He sighed deeply. 

"Alright, alright. I am just kidding, kim taehyung" I winked. 

"Okay, we are going to Everland!"

"EVERLAND!?!?! WE ARE GOING TO EVERLAND!? NOW!? TODAY!?"

Taehyung placed his hands over my mouth. "Shhhhhh. Now the whole world know that we are going to everland"

"I'm sorry but I can't contain my excitement right now. Everland has been the place that I have always wanted to go to but I couldn't"

"I know. Now, lets go! We have a long journey ahead of us"

The journey was really long and as someone who loves sleeping so much, I can basically fall asleep anywhere and everywhere. So, I fell asleep in the bus but when I woke up, I realised that Taehyung has put his arms around me and my head was resting on his chest and he was holding me tightly. The freshness of his smell lingers in my nose and it was really nice. Not to sound creepy but thats how it is. 

The moment we've reached Everland,  I couldnt stop smiling. I even got excited just by looking at the tickets. It felt like I'm in some magical place that made us forget about reality for awhile. We walked around first before getting on rides. We got a matching headband and honestly, Taehyung looked cuter in it than me. 

"Hold on, I need to take a picture of you in that headband. Its too cute" Taehyung suddenly say. After taking the picture, Taehyung was just staring at his phone while smiling. 

"What are you smiling at?"

"Nothing. I'm just feeling, lucky, because I've got someone as cute and pretty as you" he winked and then took my hand. 

"Let's take that roller coaster!" Taehyung pointed at the huge roller coaster called the T Express. I gulped down my saliva when I looked at it. It was so huge and I was kind of scared but I wanted to get on it. The queue was long and while waiting, we took several number of pictures. My phone is full with our selcas and pictures of Taehyung that I took without him knowing. He looks really good even though he was not doing anything. He received a few stares from the girls around us but he didnt even once paid attention to them which made me kinda happy about it. And I can't blame the girls too because I gotta admit, Taehyung is really really good looking. 

The roller coaster ride was crazy. I held onto Taehyung's arm the whole time and I was screaming at the start but right after the 90 degrees drop, I could not even let out anything. Meanwhile, Taehyung was laughing the whole time we're on it.

"That was fun but I think my soul has left my body! How can you even laugh throughout the whole ride?"  I said while still holding on to Taehyung as my legs are weak. 

"I had to. Actually, that was my first ever rollercoaster ride. Thank you, for being the first person that I got to ride the rollercoaster with. It was worth it"

"But you were scared, right?" I teased him. 

Taehyung was about to say something when someone called out for him. The person who called for Taehyung was someone very pretty. She has that quality of a model and not only my soul left my body, my self-esteem did too and I felt so insecure the moment I saw her. I took a step back as she was approaching us as I felt so intimidated by her. She straight up hugged Taehyung the moment she reached us and I wish I could have controlled my facial expression better because I looked like a jealous human. 

"Hey, Taehyung! How have you been!" HER HANDS WERE ALL OVER TAEHYUNG'S ARM AND MY EYES ARE ITCHING.

"Oh hey! it's been long since I met you! I'm doing great! How about you!?" Yes hello, Taehyung, pls don't forget my existence here!!!

They continued talking and I was still ignored. Bored, I walked away and went into one of the shop. After what it seems like forever, Taehyung finally found me.

"Where did you go? I was searching for you everywhere!"

"I was here"

"I'm sorry it took long. That was just an... old friend!" there was an hesitation but I just tried to not really care of who she is. 

"Mmmm, yeah sure. Its fine"

Actually i wasn't mad that he was talking to a girl, like there's no reason for me to be mad at him for talking to an old friend but what made me kind of annoyed is that, I was treated like I'm invincible. The girl didnt even care to say hi to me despite her seeing that I was definitely holding on to Taehyung when she was calling Taehyung out and Taehyung just, totally forgot about my whole existence. 

"Are you okay?"

"Yes, of course I am okay!"

Whatever. Like i've said, love never comes my way. And this is exactly why. There's always someone who is better than me. Always something or someone that will come up and messes everything up when things are getting fine for me. Taehyung is obviously going to keep in contact with that girl because I saw them exchanging numbers. And there's no way Taehyung is going to keep being with me when there's a girl as attractive as that girl, on the line. She have just ruined the day for me. Taehyung too. I'll be okay if he actually just take that 5 seconds to introduce me to her then I'll happily give them that privacy. But nope, that was not what happened and now I just feel so UGH. 

I didnt enjoy the rest of the rides anymore. I just want to go home but I don't want to spoil the day for Taehyung so I had to pretend that I am having fun and that I am perfectly fine and Taehyung didnt realised it. But it doesnt matter because I really want him to enjoy the day.  I really don't want everything to go wrong. I want to keep this moments forever. but what if its impossible? What if everything is just temporary for me?