Guidebook ↠ Shawn Mendes

Chapter 21: Tables Turned

Step 7: Stay mad at her even when you've got a few secrets of your own.

London

"God," I mumble as I sip my hot chocolate. "What am I going to do Cameron?"

"Wait, so he walked in on you kissing Matt?" Cameron tries to clarify. I nod. "Rough." He mutters as he stares up at his ceiling. "Why'd you do it?"

"I already liked Matt." I explain patiently. "Before Shawn and I started this whole thing. It was just in the moment, and I swear, I went over to his place with the intention of ending it."

"I'm sorry, I'm still trying to wrap my head around the whole fake relationship thing." He knew about the whole business deal thing and how Shawn and I were fake dating. I'd told him as much when I'd called him in tears because Sophia wasn't picking up her phone. "But that's the thing. Is it technically cheating if you were never really with Shawn?" 

"I don't know." I shake my head. "You know what I'm afraid of?"

"What?"

"Well, when we signed the contract, I knew how fake this was. I wasn't going to get feelings for him again. Every time I was with him, I reminded myself that it wasn't real."

"And you're thinking that he wasn't doing the same thing." Cameron began to understand. "You think he thought of the relationship as an actual relationship." When he sees me nod, he continues. "That makes sense. He seems pretty smitten with you."

"Smitten?" I laugh. "Who the heck uses the word smitten?"

"Hey! It fits in this case." Cameron rolls his eyes and chuckles. "He's into you. It's so obvious. At the pool, he was getting all flustered every time we talked about you."

"Flustered? What are you? A fanfiction writer?"

Cameron nudges my shoulder playfully. "As if."

I'm suddenly feeling a lot better. "Thanks for talking to me Cam. I think I just have to explain everything to Shawn. Sure, I liked Matt, but he needs to know that I like him now."

"Do you? I know you did before, but do you still have feelings for him now?"

I take a few seconds to think. "He's my friend. Shawn will always be my friend. We've been through a lot together. So the answer is, yeah, I guess I could. We just need to get off these rocky waters. My mind has been too preoccupied with Matt for a while. Really, I haven't given Shawn a fair chance."

"Give him the night. Don't call right away. Also, this is more a face to face thing. Show him you really care. No text message apologies."

"When did you become the love guru?" I laugh.

"Become? London, I was born this way!" 

"So I have your mother to thank."

"I'll accept your thanks for the time being."

"Then thank you Cameron. For everything."

Cameron smiles in response. "It's getting late, I should probably head out."

"Yeah, I don't want you driving in the dark."

"How kind."

"That's me. The kind and caring London." I flip my hair causing Cameron to roll his eyes and nudge me again.

"Bye you weirdo." He says as he stands up and grabs his phone. "Text me tomorrow and tell me everything."

"Sophia 2.0, I like it." I giggle as Cameron blows a kiss on his way out.