Beauty Sleep // Chou Tzuyu✔️

Four

-Jihyo-

"Where's Sana?" Nayeon asked, the morning of Tzuyu's cremation.

The group was staying in a hotel in Taiwan, Tzuyu's birthplace. Her family insisted she be cremated here, and her ashes be spread about the most important places to her.

Nobody was taking this easy. The group hasn't genuinely smiled since that faithful day. Onces from around the world have sent in cards and stuff, made videos in tribute to Tzuyu, and wrote letters for the maknae. JYP was heartbroken, and he's came as well, in a room for himself.

But nobody took it worse than Sana.

She rarely spoke, and she just sat there, staring into space. I felt really bad for getting mad at her and Tzuyu the last day Tzuyu was alive. If Tzuyu had a secret, Sana was just being a good friend and not telling anyone. I felt like beating myself up over it. And I did. Until Nayeon would come and tell me everything was alright.

But it wasn't. The last time Tzuyu saw me, I was a bit angry at her. And I wish I could take it all back now. I wish the last memory we had of each other was our smiling faces.

"I'm not sure," I replied to the oldest member. "Maybe sulking on the balcony or something."

Nayeon nodded and went to fetch Sana. I stayed sitting on the bed, in dressy clothing, waiting for the moment I'll last see Tzuyu. Why did she have to die so early?

"Ah, Jihyo! Could you zip up my dress?" Momo asked, walking up to me. She turned so her back faced me, and I zipped her dress up.

"Thanks. Are you okay?"

I nodded, trying not to cry fresh tears. It would mess up my make-up, and I didn't want it to be done a third time. I also was trying to be the strong leader and not cry.

"I'm fine," my voice cracked. Darn.

"Oh, Jihyo. Don't lie to me."

She patted my hair, as to not mess it up. I looked away, rapidly blinking my eyes. "Just go get ready. I'm fine, okay?"

"Whatever you say."

Momo walked away, leaving me alone again. I wanted to be alone. More importantly, I wanted to be alone back in South Korea, with Tzuyu still alive. I wanted to see her bright face in the morning, up and ready for the day. I wanted to see her go to bed early, telling everyone goodnight. I want TWICE to be a nine-member group again. Not an eight-member.

"Found her," Nayeon said, walking back in the room again. "She was at the balcony. I worry about her, Jihyo."

"We all do."

Who will be the maknae now?

Right, Chaeyoung.

Who will be the tallest?

Yeah, it's Jungyeon.

Who will be the visual?

Probably Nayeon.

There are replacements for Tzuyu's role in the group, but nobody can replace her.

What will we do without her?