Dark Waters (SLOW UPDATES)

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I pulled up ta the apartment buildin and saw James sittin outside on the stairs. I turned the car off and sat there fo' a second befo' gettin out.

Dennis really pulled a gun out on me. My own brother. It doesn't matter if he was ready ta pull the trigger, it's the fact that he even was able ta pull one out on me. My own brother. I tried my best ta raise him and yet he ended up failin school, stealin, and disrespectin me. I shook my head at the thought and got out James' car.

He stood up from the steps and met me at the bottom. He wrapped his arms around me and I did the same. I couldn't help but ta cry as I rested my head on his chest. All I did for that boy. All the hard work I did ta give him everything I could offer and I failed. My parents trusted me wit'em and I let 'em down.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't be getting so angry like that. I-"

"It's okay James. I understand. You don't want ta talk about it and I should respect that." I said tryin ta get myself together.

"Please don't cry baby." He wiped my face but my tears kept fallin.

You know that feelin when you want ta give up and you don't know what ta do anymore? I feel that way. Norma gets killed, Victoria gets a slap on the wrist for her death, my husband shuts me out and I failed my parents. All this at once is takin a toll on me. I walked around James and went inside the apartment buildin and walked up the stairs till I reached our apartment. Annie and New York were sleep on the couch. I didn't bother them I went straight ta the bedroom and strip from my clothes and got in the bed.

James

I shouldn't get angry like that. I've been trying to control it. Over the past four months I've been doing well with counting to ten and taking deep breaths. But Leo... He just did somethings I can't forgive... And I just can't let it go. He ruined all my progress by showing his ass at my job today. I don't want him anywhere near Denise. He's not a good person and he's not someone I need my wife to be around.

I wiped my hands down my face and headed inside the building before the land lord locks the doors for the night. Taking two stairs at a time I made it up to the apartment in no time. Annie was laid out on the couch with New York laying on her belly. Roy is working his second job so I know he won't be home tonight so I don't mind if she sleeps here, especially since she's so close to bursting any minute now.

I locked the doors and all the windows and shut all the curtains before getting a blanket out the Linen closet and laying it over Annie. I turned all the lights off except the lamp in the livin room so she's not completely in the dark.

The bedroom light shown from under the door and I walked in and change to my pajamas. I turnt the light off and got in the bed behind her.

"I'm really sorry Denise. I know it's a lot going on and I'm not making anything better. I'm trying my best not to act out on my feelings and go find Leo's ass. But I'm right here in bed with you." I spooned her, closing the gap between us. I heard her crying softly making me feel worse. "I don't want you around him, he's not as nice as you think. You see him coming you turn another way or if you see him first hide. I don't want you to associate with him. I'm just looking out for you." I waited for her to say something but i knew she wouldnt. I kissed her shoulder and laid down unable to go to sleep.

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