Ugghhhh... Way to melt my heart Megan. She literally has no idea how perfect she is. I adore her. When I'm around her it's as if the bad in me subsides. Yesterday when we were at Le Cafe it was so perfects. I mean it. Oh, and when my friends from the football team walked in I didn't even care. All I cared about in that moment was her.
I guess when I left that morning to go to her house I really didn't know what to expect. I especially didn't know what to expect when we went to go and get coffee. But now that I'm thinking about it all it's just like how it used to be except I can do all the things that I was scared to do when we were together. I feel this weight lifted off of my shoulders and it's just perfect. I don't know where we'll go but I have a good feeling about it. I love her.
With all of this stuff about Alistair, however, I'm worried. She is on the verge of self destruction and I can't control it. I can help as much as I can but when push comes to shove, It's all her. I was so worried that she had cut again but she didn't and I was so relieved when I found that out. I can't be the one to watch her go down.
When I finish doing the dishes I decide to text her.
Me: Hey! How are you doing?
Megan: I'm doing alright.
Me: I had a really nice time with you today...
Megan: It was great! We should do it again some time.
Me: Definitely, how's this weekend work?
Megan: That'd be cool.
Me: How does the beach sound?
Megan: Lol, you know I love the beach.
Me: Hahaha I knowww.
Megan: :)
Me: I love you.
Oh my goodness... What did I just say... Oh lord. I can't believe I just said that! I just ruined everything!
Megan: Umm...
Me: I'm sorry.
A few minutes pass.
Me: I don't know what came over me.
Megan: Uh, It's alright.
Me: I know, we're just friends.
Megan: Exactly.
Me: Just ignore it.
Megan: Well I gtg, hmu later alright?
Me: Will do.
Megan: Alright, Bye.
Me: Bye.
Saturday comes along and it's great. We go to the beach and everything is perfect. The food. The water. The weather. Her.
