City Lights (Chris Motionless Cerulli)

chapter 13

CHRIS' POV

i was so pissed at her! id never had a girl have that reaction before. i know it was wrong for me to say those things about her, of course i didnt mean them! god, im just so stressed about tour and what to do about Kaya at the moment. it was just me and Ricky in the living area, the others had gone out and i was giving Kaya some space so we both could think. it was about 10:30pm and we werent doing a gig tonight so we were just chilling. im glad i had talked things over with Rick, he really calmed me down :) and i was starting to think positively again. me and Kaya hopefully have a future together and i cant wait for us to get back on track. the guys came back and they all sat down. "right, im off to bed guys" i said to them all. all i got in responce was "k" aha but i didnt mind. it was unusually quiet so i knocked on the door of the sleeping area....no answer so i crept in. there was nobody in there, she was probably getting ready for bed in the toilet. i wet over to our bunk and saw the amazing drawing she had done..she was so talented and beautiful. i heard a buzzing sound coming from her ipod earphones, i put them in and City Lights came on. i listened for a little while ten put them back on our shared bed. she had been ages in the bathroom as it was now 11:20pm. i knocked softly on the door to the bathroom. no answer.. "Kaya?? are u done yet cos i have to go to bed, its getting late!" no answer...i knockd again, louder...still nothing, silence. "Kaya!" i shouted, nothing. she was ignoring me again and anger began to bubble inside me..i tried to open the door, locked. i went back into the sleeping area and grabbed a pin ad began to pick at the lock. after about a minute or so, the lock broke and i let myself in............the color ran out of my face as i stared in horror. The remaining pills surrounded a pool of blood that came from her thighs and arms. Blood had covered her skinny jeans and band tshirt that moulded perfectly to her body. she was crouched down in fetal position against the wall, her head resting against the sink. i was feeling more and more sick by the minute. My beautiful, happy, caring, funny Kaya laying cold on the floor, limp. I saw a note on the toilet seat and picked it up and read it. there were blood spots on it as i read it and i gasped. She loved me.. i quickly knelt down next to her, tears streaming down my face as i realised that she must of heard me talking about her, this was my fucking fault. she thought i hated her! she was soo wrong. i carefully grabbed her limp arm, covered in deep cuts welling with blood, to check for a pulse............it was weak, but thankfully it was there. "Ricky! ring an ambulance quick! its Kaya!" i shouted, not ashamed that i was crying "what..what happened?" he replied "Just call them!" i shouted/cried back. Ghost rushed through, stopped and gasped at my girls weak, lifeless body "C-Chris....i-i'm so sorry" he said putting his hand on my shoulder "i love her more than anything in the world Devin, what am i gonna do if she dont make it?" i said as the tears persistently streamed down my face and i stared at my world. She actually thought i hated her, this is my fault, if she doesnt pull through, i wont be able to live without her, ill be finished. then i heard the emergency lights of the ambulance, help at last, i had to stay strong for my girl, my everything.






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That was just a filler really..so please COMMENT on what should happen next because im not sure wether to continue with this :/ please VOTE