Caught Like A Fly

last chapter!! :(

*Lizzy's POV*

Ronnie took Cole to the hospital and he was fine. Rain is grounded. Serena and Cole seem to like each other and Ashley is pissed. I lay in bed next Ronnie. He is on the other side scrolling on his phone. I lay on my side facing the wall. I wish he remembers me soon. He is the love of my life.

"Liz there is a post on twitter saying you were cheating on me. It even has a picture. Is that true?" He asks. I turn to face him and snatch the phone. It is a pic of me a Dahvie on my 25th birthday when he kissed my cheek. He was just being his sweet cheesy self.

"No that is from my birthday after Dahvie gave me my gift. He and I were having a deep conversation and he kissed my cheek and gave me a hug. I would never cheat on you. I love you. I'm not like that. And if you had your memory would know that and never worry." I turn off his phone throwing of towards him

I turn back over onto my side. And clapping so the lights turn off. "Good night." I say closing my eyes. "Night. " he says in return.

*****

I wake up and sit up in bed. I look at Ronnie. He is on the edge of the bed snoring. I wish he never left. I could care less how sick I get. Him remembering who I am is more important to me.

Wait. Does he not love me. You should not have to remember to love someone. Maybe he left to get away from me and he came back cause he felt sorry for me. That has to be the reason. I am so not loveable let alone a loving person.

I don't blame him. I would leave me too. We never had sex. I couldn't do a lot of the things he wanted to because of my wheelchair. My dad and sister would come over and probably drive him crazy. I mean. It's not that hard to figure out.

I pull my chair my way. I get it in not really caring of I wake him up. I go to the bathroom. I look in the mirror. I am pale with bags underneath my eyes. My face sunken in. Thin chapped lips. My arms and legs show bone.

I lift my black lace gown. You can see my ribs as well. Geez. If he did love me before he sure won't now.

I head to the kitchen not bothering to change or put on my usual makeup. I roll beside the table and sit there with my arms holding up my head.

I don't have the strength to announce my presence. I just don't want to do anything anymore. I wish I could just disappear. I am so weak I cant even stand anymore.

I am just a sack of depressed bones.

"Mom..?" A concerned voice asks. I look up and my eyes meet with Rain's. "Yes?" I say sounding weaker than I thought I would. I force a smile.

"Let me wash your hair." She says plainly. I remove my wig and hand it to her. She takes it and walks to the kitchen sink.

I sigh and rub my hand over my buzzed head. I have a centimeter of hair. Maybe two. I roll to the front porch. I reach behind a plant and grab a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. I light one and relax. I lay one leg across the other and sit back in my chair.

The paper boy throws the paper into the yard. Not like I read it. Our neighbor walks by with their dog. She used to be my friend. She sees me and makes a face of disgust. I flip her off while taking a long drag. She snorts and walks faster.

Why do people have to judge. I look down and wipe ashes of my gown. I hum 'my immortal' by Evanescence.

"Mom!? Are you smoking!?!" Rain screams running out the door. She snatches my cigarette from my boney and shaky hand. "Hey give that back!!" I say reaching for it. She jerks away.

"No!! I am not letting you do this to yourself!!!" She says putting out on the ground. "Well it's my body and my life!!! I choose my own path!!! I'm dying anyway!!!" I yell before crossing my arms.

What does it matter. I'm gonna die soon anyway. She should let me enjoy myself before I go. "Well your not dead yet so suck it up and get your ass in the house!!"

Did she just say that to me. "Don't just look at me get the fuck in the house!! Right fucking now!! God damn it now!!!" She yells throwing her hands in the air.

I squint my eyes. I uncross my legs and roll inside. She was holding the door with one hand and resting the other on her hip. I roll to the kitchen table. Cole, and Ronnie are sitting there watching me. Cole has glassy teary eyes. Ronnie just looks down with a small frown.

I roll up to my seat. I cross my arms. Everyone else has food. Fish in fact. With asparagus and lemon. She sits a plate down in front of me with the same.

"What's this?" I ask. She knows I became vegetarian to be healthy. "Catfish." She says sitting down with her own plate.

Everyone begins eating. I stare at my plate in disgust. I sip the coffee beside my plate. Black just the way I like it. Black like my soul.

"Eat..your..fish!" Rain seethes. I sot back and stare at her. "No." I say simply. She slams her cup down. "Eat your fish!!" She yells. I cross my arms. "No." I say once more. She can't make me do it.

"EAT YOUR FUCKING FISH!!!" she yells standing up. I shrug my shoulders and stare at her.

"EAT YOUR FUCKING FISH!!" she yells. "No." I would say. She throws her glass in the floor and screams once more "BICTH YOU BETTER EAT YOUR MOTHER FUCKING FISH RIGHT GOD DAMNED NOW!!" I wait for her to finish.

I clear my throat. She wants to scream and smash stuff. Well I can do that too. I smash my plate on the floor. "WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!?! I'M YOUR MOM YOU DON'T YELL AT ME LIKE THAT. NO NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!! AND IF YOU THINK I'M GONNA SIT HERE AND LET YOU BOSS ME AROUND YOU'VE GOT ANOTHER THING COMING!! YEAH I LOOK LIKE I NEEEED YOUR HELP, BUT I DON'T!! SO WHEN I WANT SOMETHING TO EAT I'LL EAT IT!!! AND IT WONT BE THIS FUCKING FISH!!!" I yell.

Ronnie and Cole stare at me. S
Rain. Throws her plays at the wall before running up the stairs. I grab my lighter and pack of cigarettes from my chair behind me and light one.

"What ain't never seen a dying woman before." I snap. Cole looks down at his plate and so does Ronnie. Ronnie stands and grabs a broom. He sweeps up the food and broken glass.

I watch him I stare at his eyes. So full of. . . well there's the thing. I don't know. He has a look in his eyes I've never seen before nor can I decipher. He quickly sweeps up the glass. He throws it away and takes his plays to the kitchen. Cole does the same with his plate. I sigh.

He takes my empty coffee mug. I couldn't help but grab onto his arm. He looked me in the eyes. I tilt my head and frown. He frowns and pulls his arm away taking my cup to the kitchen.

*Ronnie's POV*

Lizzy is beautiful. Behind her sad tired eyes and mean putter shell. She let's down her walls from time to time. And you see how wonderful she truly is. I can't remember but a few things. Like my career. Things like my dog. I do remember a little from when me and Lizzy first got together. Like Florida.

I miss her? I don't know. I feel warmth when I'm near her. But there is another woman. She has brown eyes and beautiful brown hair. A British accent.

I remember holding her and loving her as well. I write her letters. She tells me that we were in love before I met Lizzy. She said we had a child. Then I was cheating on her with Lizzy. And left them.

I'm not sure about anything though. I am just confused. Maybe I should stop and be with no one.

I guess its time for a divorce.