Kiss of death

taking the plunge

The truth is no one understands, but for what its worth I think they truly try. Although I throw up in my mouth a little each time someone looks at me with pity. Walking down the hallway of East Side Prep, I can't seem to get the voices out of my head. The whispers and looks feel like being stoned alive.

I pull my blazer closer and snuggle into it. Well actually its Brand's but I guess I've inherited it. The scent is not as strong as I'd like it to be, it makes me miss him more but I just can't let go.

"Hey Ava .....I'm really sorry about the twins. its just so sad what happened to them" Maria says.

"Uhm yeah...thank you I guess?!" I breath out awkwardly. Maria is a gorgeous girl, with red fiery hair and glass green eyes. At 5"7 she stood four inches taller than me , was model skinny and cheer leading captain. Although she was queen B and once had a crush on Brand, she was easily the nicest person ever. She was the closest thing to a friend I had now.

She gave me a comforting hug and then we walked to homeroom.

"Uhm so let's drop the depressing and talk about something else, like the game tomorrow. Are you coming with?"

"Ah I don't know, I mean he was the only reason I ever went.. you know, I guess it's going to be weird with him not leading the team." Brand had been the quarter back and captain of the team, although I was not really outstanding or popular he was IT for EastSide.

"Oh God I'm so sorry, I'm being insensitive but I just guess I miss you guys. I lost you with them Ava." she sniffles

"I wish you'd let me in , I'm not Brit but....."

I know it sounds mean but she was annoying the crap out of me. So to avoid exploding I gave in

"yeah okay, I'll come with alright.. Don't cry its irritating"

Wiping her eyes she gives me the brightest grin, and squeakes.

Oh fudge... I'm so not ready for this yet but hey , Just grin and bear it right?

At about 6pm , I'm in front of my mirror putting on lip gloss when I hear the hoot of a car. I pick up my purse  or rather strap bag and rush out. Maria and her boyfriend Chase are waiting in his black Dodge viper..Chase who was also Brand's best friend is cute, also he looks a lot like him with blonde hair and sharp features but his eyes are gray.

He gets out and kisses my cheek, hugging me tight.

"How are you holding up Ava?"

"Aw Chase I'll live at least , you lost your Best friend too . You don't need to be strong for me."

He sighs and guides me inside where Maria is looking eery and sad.

"Mar we are okay .....don't look so depressed babe." Chase says, kissing the side of her head.

Something cuts at me, envy I guess. I find myself thinking about how I'd have been in Brand's car. The four us cruising to the west with them following our car in theirs.

I sink into my seat and zone out. I hope I can live through this game. I really don't want to pull them into my darkness.

I think as we pull into the West Side Public parking lot. Our school's biggest rival in every thing.

The oversized football shirt that was Brands is cool on my skin that has begun to sweat with nerves. I know it's weird but I just can't seem to leave without his clothes on.

I try to carry a piece of him with me everywhere. It's not really helping me deal with the pain but I'm not ready to let go yet. I want to pretend he is still here , just a little longer. It doesn't help that Lacey gifted me with the majority of his clothes.

The three of us make it into the stadium, and Chase leaves to join his team. As the new captain he looks made for it. I idly wonder  if Brandon had been holding him back, stealing his glory.

"Come and sit with the cheer squad!....... argh! I don't need to tell you, you always do.. I swear I don't know why you don't join the squad" Mar mumbles as she skips to our seats.

Well! VIP seats to the first match without them. Let's hope I live through this, although I'm not exactly opposed to joining the twins,  wherever people go when they abandon you.

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