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3- broken eyes

Jade 

The next day is horrendous. None of us found Calum, and Michael is making me go back to school. Luke and Ashton seemed happy to have Shawn back, and Violet was pleased that Mikey didn't put his education in danger. 

Now, I'm not normally one to miss school. School is great. However, it's Calum. 

I'm on my way to History, it being one of my favourite subjects - that's one thing me and Calum don't have in common - when I notice a familiar dark haired, brown eyed boy in the corridor ahead of me. His head is down, scribbling something onto the back of his forearm. 

Leaning against the wall like that, he makes everything seem so casual. 

I want to fúcking hit him. 

He barely acknowledges me as I storm over to him, ripping the pen from his grasp and throwing it across the hall at one of the younger students - accidentally, of course. "Calum! You freaking jerk!" I say harshly and slightly too loud. "I was so worried about you, for god's sake. Calum Thomas Hood, don't you fućking dare." I give his chest a shove and am blown away by the strength of it. 

He looks down at me with wide, broken eyes and his bottom, pouty lip quivers slightly. His eyes fill with tears and immediately wrap my arms around his torso, squeezing his body into mine. "I'm so sorry Jade-" 

"No, no. I'm sorry, you're allowed off days." 

"Ugh just kiss already." My annoying mistake of a brother interrupts, leaning beside Calum and rolling his eyes at me. "I mean, you both need each other. Calum, my sister'll show you life in a new way. And Jade, Cal will teach you what love is like." 

The heat in my face is almost unbearable, and I want the ground to swallow me up whole. If at this moment, one of Shawn's many 'girl-friends' could walk past and distract him that would be just great. 

"Also, you're both virgin's, yeah? Learn with each other." 

"Shawn - just, shut up." 

"Have Michael and Violet done it yet?" 

"Shawn-"

"Have you ever given a blowjob?" 

"Shawn!" 

"I can hook you both up with someone if you won't do it together." 

"Shawn..." 

"You know what, Jade, would you do it with Luke? Because he thinks your fit. Cum-worthy I think he said." 

"Shawn!" I squeal, and luckily Calum places his hands over my ears so I don't have to listen to the words spilling from my horny brother anymore. "I'm your sister, don't talk to me about sex." 

"Whatever. I'll give Luke a call." He winks and spins around, jogging into the classroom after one of his many drug-addict friends. 

Me and Calum would normally be first into class, but today, Calum holds me back. His hand finds mine and we stay in the corridor, leaning against one wall. "You won't actually do it with Luke, will you?" He whispers, and he sounds so worried. 

"No, I'm more of an Ashton girl-" the look on his face is priceless. "Cal, relax. I'm kidding." He nods very slightly and smiles a small smile. "Anyway, I mean, I feel really sexually attracted to Michael but he's taken-"

"Stop!" Calum groans and slams his hands over his own ears. I giggle and grab his elbow, dragging him back into class. 

***

Neither me or Calum mention yesterday, or earlier - which stays in my head all day. Neither one of us denied wanting to kiss, or sleep together. The fact that the idea lingers in my brain makes me think, the thought of being with Calum like that makes me feel a bit strange, but I kind of like it. 

"Cal?" I ask, as we're in the library after school, like always. He nods and drags his eyes from his beloved copy of The Fault In Our Stars. This time I don't ask for help with my homework, this time, I lean forward slightly and grin very oddly. I'm sure I look insane. "About what Shawn said-" 

"Oh god." 

I can't help but chuckle, before regaining my composure and placing my hand over his. "If it came to it, would you sleep with me?" 

His eyes widen and I'm sure I've messed up, he jerks his hand out from under mine, and I've never felt so stupid, so idiotic, so embarrassed. 

And then those feelings are replaced, by I don't know what. 

Calum's lips are on mine.