Dear Not-So Anonymous Reader,

June 10th, 2016 @ 5:13 PM

Dear certain not-so anonymous reader,

If you haven't fully read everything put before, please do so before lowering your eyes.

If you don't want to, leave now.

These have been the most empty three days of my life. I betrayed my friend, and I betrayed god. I did wrong, such a stupid, and just plain-out weird wrong, trying to do an elongated right - to creep you out, to make you flee from me for good, and to let you go. But something in me hurts greater and greater. It won't leave. I need my friend desperately.

Though I never seemed to, and though you may never believe me when I say this, I did respect your choice. You are your own being, and I do have to accept it. But I have to cope with it, and I am left with nothing. I want my friend back, to help me stray my aggressive, over-stipulant, childish mind from this.

I'm sure by now, you know I can do some very far-out, dramatic, and just plain insane things. I hope with the help of my archived thoughts, as the alleged friend of mine, you can begin to comprehend truly why I do.

I am ashamed of my personality when it comes to my longevitious actions, but that too has to be accepted for as much as I accept your choice.

And, I now know, you may never feel the same about me as I do towards you. I can't change who I am at the core, and neither can you. But like you said, people do change, and people do grow.

You may feel very opposed to my overall doings, but think of the friend me, and forget the other.

May I befriend, the new you?

Sincerely, that crazy person