The Deadly Wolf's Talented Blossom

Scared

Okamiko giggled trying to get her father attention, but he just ignored her the pain wasn't gone when Sakura had pulled on his chakra, his chest hurting... He hated feeling the pain of ignoring his family but he hated the fact that he could kill them at any moment. Clenching his fists and sighing, he was leant against the wall, sitting down, okamiko still trying to get his attention, but he couldn't get his mind of the fact that he could hurt them.. He hadn't been killing ever since Sakura fell pregnant with the twins almost a full year ago,.. He didn't get why he was feeling so bored.. Maybe he just didn't have anything to really keep him occupied.. Not having so many missions from the hokage, but from The akatsuki instead. Kakashi sighed my feeling his claws extend slowly, okamiko began to play reaching up for his mask, which he just pushed her little hand away from his face. She began to pouted still reaching for it and giggling me now on her feet and trying to get her daddy's attention, it was then when she began to slip. Loosing her footing and beginning fall off him, but he caught her gently, in his clawed hand. Sighing
"Miko, no trying to take daddy's mask off" he whispered softly, she was crying. He quietly put her onto his chest, a new scent then entered his nose making him flinch at the baby girl her arm was bleeding, his claws instantly retracted and he let his warm chakra wrap around her little arm softly, holding her gently against his shoulder as the chakra slowly healed her, helping her chakra to heal.. The pups chakra would increase as they grew, but for now they had a very small amount, making it harder for the chakra to actually do what it does, like healing and protecting, he'd teach the pups how to do proper jutsu using the chakra but not any deadly ones.. No way would he teach his pups how to kill, knowing how Sakura is sh'ed destroy him for doing anything that was related to killing with the pups being as young as they are. But he knew better then to teach a 1 year old how to kill. Kakashi sighed my Okamiko now giggling and playing with his headband that was around his neck, her little hands tugging on it playing with it. Kakashi smiled at her softly.. Keeping her close. Her little brother asleep in his lap, the twins hadn't left him alone, wanting to spend time with him.. It honestly broke his heart seeing them cry.. It ripped him apart.. Yet he tried his hardest to stay away from his kids.. Sakura sighed walking over to him and sighing, handing him a plate of teriyaki, he had also learnt that she was great at cooking making him want to stay even more. Making sure Okamiko was safely on his lap he then took hold of the plate and began to eat, he had starved himself lately. Nawing on the bone, Sakura smiled softly as she watched him stuff his face with the meat he loved so much.
"Like it?"
"Fuck yes" Kakashi grumbled, swallowing the meat "it's great!" He said smirking, "way better then the ones at the BBQ... By far" he mumbled, Sakura blushed and smiled
"Don't try to flatter me, your not getting out of me scolding you" she said seriously, he gave her an annoyed look
"For your information miss haruno, I do enjoy this. Lot better then usagi's and the BBQ's ones, this is just... Anyway., I know I'm not getting out of scolding from you, so Im just waiting until you actually do it" he said smirking at her, okamiko reaching for his head and again, kakashi sighed, untying the headband from his neck and putting it in the girls head "happy now you?" He asked, the baby girl giggled at him and slowly began to fall asleep. Kakashi smiled at her softly "night princess" he whispered sighing, leaning his back.. Sakura smiled at him, setting the plate down and leaning against him
"I'm glad you agreed to stay..."
"You really believe that I wouldn't when my pups begged me to stay? How cold hearted do you think I am saku?" Sakura looked away from him.. Sighing, kakashi frowned at her.
"Kakashi...." She whispered my turning his head to her and pressing her lips against his masked one, he growled at her, tugging his mask down, chakra pulling her closer to him, one arm around her waist, she then pulled back a little dazed, "your everything but cold hearted" he smirked at her, bringing her closer to him. Sakura sighed hugging him,
"Your lucky the pups are on me" he said lowly
"Kakashi.. Why don't you see that-" he then sighed
"Sakura, i get that you want me to stay, and want me to actually be a father towards the pups but...." He then sighed my gazing at the two sleeping in his laps soundly
"But who would want a killer as a father... Or as a husband?.. No one, no one would want killer to be the father of their children, Sakura I know that you and the pups love me but.. It's just hard.. It's hard to be gentle.. Especially with the pups, knowing I could hurt them so easily it just... Frightens me to know that I could hurt my kids so easily, there just fragile..." He whispered, sighing my "look, I know your probably against everything I'm saying like you usually are but just hear me out" he asked softly, Sakura wanted to object to his whole statement. But sighed my nodding her head lightly, he then sighed,
"Sakura, ever since I was a kid I've been able to hurt people fatally, and as I've gotten older over gotten even stronger. My strength hasn't been equaled yet and honestly I'm scared, I'm scared that I'll hurt the pups... I never used to care much for family or relationships but now.. Just the thought of being around my pups when I'm in my demon form scares me out of my skin.. I know I said that I'd never ditch you and take care of the pups with my life but... It's hard when they follow me everywhere and cry at me when I leave.. It's hard to keep myself calm especially when they cry all night, their crying irritates me. A lot. I just don't want them to fear me Sakura.. But that's going to be almost impossible to avoid thanks to my issues... I said that I'd protect you and the pups with my life and being away from you is safest way I can think of. I know it's stupid to be away from my pups I know but I just find it its the easiest and safest way to keep the pups out of harms and my way..." He whispered.. Eyes closed "I don't think you know what's it's like have so much power in your control Sakura, and I don't think you'll ever know.. To be able to control chakra that can cremate live people, to be as sharp as a blade that can cut off someone's head.. To be able to I force chakra into your own body to make you almost invincible, to be able to transform into a monster that most fear, to be faster the the yellow flash himself. Sakura with this much power that's been given to me by my clan it's hard not to accidentally use it. My chakra can do many things yes but killing is its main use, it's as if it's alive, and if my anger gets out of hand... My chakra could..." He then sighed "not only kill but... Cremate and turn anyone I'm close to to dust.." He then sighed, demon eyes activated "many people want my abilities, and with so many rogues having bothered us to try and destroy me? You and the pups would and are in danger 24/7 no matter where you are, weather it be here or in the middle of the village, Sakura, you just have to understand that I..." He then stopped. Rubbing his seal lightly "that I'm not supposed to be here, my goal was to kill without hesitation, but now it's just keep you and the pups safe.. And that's what I'm doing.. I know that your just going to object knowing you.." He then smiled.. It was clear and genuine "I've never been in my full form Sakura" she seemed shocked,
"But I thought-"
"The wolf form is only part of it, if I had gone any further I would have killed you then... My final form is a form that takes me months to get out of, it can take me months to even be able to talk properly and act normally... " he whispered.. Sakura sighed
"Kakashi.. I do feel that your wring about yourself.. To doubt yourself is just sad.. But..." Kakashi sighed, kissing her lips softly
"Just so you know Sakura, you can always call"
"But you won't-"
"Sakura, have I ever not came?" She then smiled softly at him, leaning against his shoulder quietly
"No.. You've always came and saved me" he just sighed "love you..." She whispered.. Kakashi sighed
"Love you too Sakura"