It's Only Because I Love You (J.M) [COMPLETE]

chapter 3

J A C K

She came towards me and pulled me into a hug. I let her rest her head on my chest and pulled us both under the covers. What the fuck have I just done? She turned over to lie on her side and her breathing soon went back to a normal pace. I rolled over behind her and held her in my arms. I'll make the most of this while I can. She's so beautiful but I wish I hadn't done that. I don't want to hurt Josh and I especially don't want to hurt her!

L A U R E N

I woke up with arms around me. I felt my legs entangled with someone elses. Josh must be home or something. But he isn't due back until next week! I opened my eyes to see the familiar surroundings. Jack's room. My breathing started to get faster and I started freaking out. I moved away from him and sat up.

I'm naked! I made sure I was covered whilst sat there freaking out. I heard him waking up.
"Shit!" Is all he could say.
"Jack what happened last night?" I asked him.
"I don't know... We went out and drank a lot!"

"Other than that! Be honest!"
"I don't remember!" He didn't sound sure.
"I said be fucking honest!" I shouted at him.
"I don't know! Anything could have happened! I was drunk! I don't know what happens when I'm drunk!"

The door opened and Conor burst into the room.
"Jack what are we- Oh." He looked confused. I had tears in my eyes.
"Conor, do you know what happened? Jack says he doesn't know although I'm sure he fucking does! What happened last night?"

"I heard a lot of movement in here. You two were messing about or something!" Fuck my life!
"I knew it! I fucking knew it! Jack how could you let that happen? Why did you do that? Why did it happen?" I screamed at him.
"It wasn't even me!" He screamed back.
"Oh sure it wasn't!" How dare he blame this on me?!

"Actually Lauren Jack's right. Last night you were the one trying to kiss him." This cant be true.
"I- what?"
"Im sorry..." Is all Jack could say.
"Fucking sorry! You should be! Why the fuck did you let this happen? What the fuck am I meant to tell Josh? I really don't wanna lose him! I love him! But I feel so guilty about what happened now and when I tell him hes going to freak and-"

"I'll tell him." Jack stated.
"No... No he's going to hate you. You fucking live with him. I mean I do too but I have places I can go to. You don't. Fuck what am I going to do?" The tears were streaming down my face and I could feel it happening. This is the start of a panic attack.

J A C K

She's freaking out. I feel guilty and now I wish what we did never happened! Her breathing has gotten quicker and the tears are pouring down faster.
"Lauren?"
"Can't- do this."
"Do what?"
"Feel- dizzy." This isn't a good sign. She's starting to have a panic attack!

"Are you stable enough to get clothes on?"
"No- can't move." Her breathing is getting faster.
"Conor grab her some clothes! Just try and find a long tshirt or something! Anything thats easy to put on!"
"Got it!" Conor ran off to her room.
"Okay Lauren follow me okay... In... and out. In... and out got it?" She nodded slightly. Her breathing was starting to slow down with every breath.

"Okay, in... and out. Well done. Your doing really well." Conor ran back in with clothes.
"Are you able to move now?" She shook her head slightly.
"Conor pass me her clothes!" He chucked them to me. I grabbed the tshirt and pulled it over her head. I managed to get her arms in and pull it down.

"Can you move your legs at all?"
"I don't- want to." She looked quite happy just sat there. I moved to be right next to her, without uncovering myself of course.
"Im sorry Lauren. I didn't mean for any of this."
"I need- Josh." I quickly grabbed some clothes off the floor and chucked them on before climbing out of bed. I grabbed Lauren and carried her into hers and Josh's room, placing her carefully on the bed.

"Hey Josh, yeah we need some help." Conor's got him on facetime already.
"What with?"
"It's Lauren."
"Is she okay? Where is she? I need to see her!" He demanded.
"She's having a panic attack." Conor walked into the room and showed Lauren on the camera. I'm sat next to her but Conor came and sat opposite us.

"Lauren! Beautiful what's happened?" She can't tell him.
"I miss- miss you. I need- you." She said to him. Thank god she didn't tell him the truth.
"Okay well just take deep breaths okay. You're going to be fine baby. Jack could you get her some water or something? That should help." I got up and ran to the kitchen. I poured her a glass of water and ran back to the room, sitting next to her.

"You still- still love me- right?" Lauren asked him.
"Of course I do. Why wouldn't I?"
"I had a nightmare." Her eyes were starting to dry up and I handed her the glass. She gladly took it and drank some water. Conor handed Lauren his phone and left the room.

"Would you like me to come home soon? I don't have to be here anymore really."
"No you enjoy your time with Caspar." She told him.
"But I want to be with you. I worry about you!" Josh looked genuinely sad.

"I know. Do whatever you want! Just know that I miss you." You could make out the sadness in her voice.
"I love you beautiful! More than you could imagine!"
"I love you too."

"Ive got to go now okay?" Lauren's face went dark.
"Okay."
"I'll speak to you soon baby. Love you!"
"I love you too." She called out before they hung up. Lauren started crying again.

(A/n) sorry to leave it like this but I didn't feel like including anything else to this part. Love you all! Xxxx