Emma's Book Of Randomness

Ehh... I don't know...

Hey guys. It's me.
Yeah, your probably already see the change of emotion. And the title. So, yeah.
I heard sad news today...

So, a few days ago, we learned that my grandmother had cancer. She didn't really know she had it, until she went to the doctor. So, we decided to visit her. She seemed really sick-like, and I tried to give her my full attention. About a year ago, she was sick, but something told me she was going to feel better, and she did. Well, something told me that this time, she wasn't going to be so lucky. I had this same feeling when my cat, Telly, passed. She died because of cancer. So, they were going to do chemotherapy (or, what you see at St. Jude's, that makes all the kids hair fall off and etc.). This time, I felt she wasn't going to make it, but I still prayed and hoped. Hoped for the best.
And, then we go to today.
She has even more cancer, in her bones and her stomach.
She's decided to not to the chemotherapy...
She'll die in a matter of weeks.

So, yeah. This emotion is probably temporary, I don't really know. I'm trying to keep the best, but I know I'll ball out crying in the end. So, at this current moment, I'm not really feeling anything. Not happy. Not sad. Just, there, I guess.
So, there it is, flat out on the Internet. Had to tell someone, you know? If I didn't, it would probably eat me alive.
And right before school ends, perfect timing. Even better, this is the week of exams. Great. Apparently, this cancer moves really fast, so, it might be sooner.
And to think, I was going to celebrate the first day of summer vacation (or at least try too).
At least she got to ride one last cruise with her family, and celebrate her anniversary, before she... Well, yeah.
I'll try to make the best of it...
Ok, now I'm sad. Not crying, just really, really, sad. 😕