Addiction (Lashton)

Chapter Six

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I'm like a rubber band until you pull too hard, Yeah, I may snap and I move fast

 Chapter Six

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"Party tonight, you comin'?" Jake asked. Across the hallway I noticed Ashton talking to one of his friends. I shrugged. "I don't know. I'll see."

Jake was shocked. "Hemmings turning down a party! Who would have thought it." 

I rolled my eyes. "There's a first for everything, Greene." 

"Whatever man, let me know yeah? I'll even invite Carla for you." He winked at me before walking off. I scoffed at the mention of her. As if she would make me want to go. She would be the last person that I would like to see, clearly shows he never listens when I regularly rant to him. 

I walked over to where Ashton was stood with his friends. "Hey Ash, can we talk?" 

Ashton looked to his friends, mumbling a goodbye before agreeing to talk to me. We walked out to the field under the tree where he had snatched my cigarette and rather cruelly trod on it. I still and will never forgive him for that. 

"So... What did you want to talk about?" 

"I wanted to ask if you wanted to hang out later?" I asked, shrugging casually. 

Ashton raised an eyebrow. "Do you mean like fuck or actually hang out?" 

"Actually hang out." I was sheepish to admit this, it was unclear why. Maybe because I always got nervous around Ashton for so odd reason. "Or we could fuck, too." I winked at him. Gaining back my confidence.

"You're unbelievable." Ashton rolled his eyes. 

"So is that a yes?"

"It's a no, I have to go home to see my family." Ashton said. I frowned. "I'm sorry, it's my mum's took ill and I need to go and look after my siblings." 

"Oh, okay. That's cool." I tried to act nonchalant and not at all like it hurt that Ashton was leaving for who knows how long. "I hope everything's okay with your mum and she gets better soon."

"Yeah. I hope so too."

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Over the coming days that Ashton was away, I grew bored. I had never been dependant on anyone, I was always one that would rely on myself. It was easier that way. No heartbreaks; no trouble; no mess. Lately, however, that all changed. I missed Ashton. I wanted to go and see him, yet I couldn't because of fucking course he's three hours away. 

I blamed it on sexual frustration but deep down I knew that wasn't the case, there was another reason that I wasn't willing to admit. 

Grabbing my phone, I rang up Jake. 

"Well hello, Hemmings." Jake said in a snarky tone when he answered. I rolled my eyes at this, not wanting to deal with his bullshit right now. "How nice of you to call. Thought you would have been busy with your boyfriend."

"Shut up, greene." I snapped. "He's not my boyfriend anyway." 

I sighed. 

"So what is it you want?"

"Can we meet up? I need someone." I proposed. I know I had agreed to Ashton's stupid rules but he should know better. Rules and me never mix and I won't listen to anyone, especially Ashton Irwin. 

Jake laughed. "You sure your boyfriend won't mind?" 

"He's not my boyfriend!" I snapped once again, annoyed at his accusation of me and Ashton being boyfriends. It wasn't that the idea bothered me, far from it. It was just that I knew it's not the truth and I knew Ashton wouldn't want it. 

I never settled down. Ever. Ashton deserved someone better than me, I'm surprised he had stuck with me this long to be completely honest with you. 

Ten minutes later, I had found myself naked in Jake's dorm, clothes thrown aimlessly across the room and the smell of sex and weed stinking up the room. Me an Jake hooking up used to be a common occurrence, before Ashton anyway. We would get high together and then fuck. 

As I let Jake fuck me all I could think about was him. 

And as I came all I could think about was him. 

As Jake passed me a freshly lit joint all I could think about was him. 

Always him. Nobody else, just him; just Ashton. 

I was falling for no other than Ashton Irwin and in simpler terms: I was fucked. 

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Sorry for doing a disappearing act, I've had a lot of shit going on lately especially with my mental health so I've been focusing on that. But i'm back! I know this update isn't really the best and it is a bit messy at times but just bear with me whilst I get back into the swing of things. I don't know how regular updates will be but I will try my absolute best to update again more frequent for you for being patient.