Suicidal Dreams (a one direction fan-fiction)

It's over...

Hi so I think I won't post for a while cuz my parents are taking my iPod so I'm thanks and stand by for me.
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I was walking down the stairs. I heard the shouts of angry ranting girls outside. I ignored it until one girl said: your not worth attention. Why don't you just die. I stopped dead in my tracks. What did she just say!!!! I felt like crying but the tears didn't come. I felt like screaming but I had no voice. I blinked and continued to walk. I yelled for Niall. Where was he?! I walked to the living room. No Niall. I walked to the game room. No Niall. I walked back up the stairs and checked every room. No Niall. I ran back down stairs. I checked every bathroom. No Niall in fact no one. Of course the one place I hadn't checked where he was guarantied to be. No Niall. I had to face the fact that I was alone. I heard the scream again. "You're not worth it." Those 4 word replaying in my mind. Over and over again. You're not worth it. You're not worth it. You're not worth it." I ran up the stairs. I fought and fought to ignore it. Every smile had pain behind it. Every laugh fake. I collapsed on my desk chair. It's done. I can't fight anymore. No more. I opened up my video camera and closed my eyes. I took a deep breath and pressed the record button. I started for a while. Just looking. "Niall mummy boys. I'm sorry. I don't know why I'm sorry but I'm sorry. By the time you watch this I'll be dead and gone. Please don't blame your selves. It's not your fault. It's mine I'm sorry I'm not stronger I'm sorry. Liam Thank you for being like a dad to me. Zayn thank you for all the advice you've given me." I took a deep breath and continued. "Harry thank you for always giving me everything you have given me. The love the support. Louie thank you for always making me laugh no matter what. And Niall thank you for- for your love your support. Never making me cry. Always making me happy. Thank you for giving me the spark to go on. Mummy thank you for always being there for me thank you for working extra so I could go to soccer and paying extra for things that I didn't really need." I blinked and swallowed tears no flowing down my cheeks. "Please tell Greg and dad I love them. Felicity thank you for giving me the support to go on. Thank you for being the light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you for making me laugh and smile every single day. Don't blame your selves for this it's me." I ran to the bathroom to grab a rope and a chair. I tied the rope to the top of the ceiling fan. "Good bye" I whispered and turned of the video camera. I fastened the rope around my neck and stepped of the chair. I was gone. Everything was quiet. I was gone. I was dead there was no going back. It was over.
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Ok so this was kinda based off of this amazing thing. here's the link thanks for reading
http://m.soundcloud.com/eriikaa/sucide?utm_source=soundcloud&utm_campaign=mshare&utm_medium=email&utm_content=http://soundcloud.com/eriikaa/sucide