Suicidal Dreams (a one direction fan-fiction)

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Hi so this has taken so long to write and I'm super sorry please just stay with me.

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I blinked away the rest of my tears and Niall pulled into the drive way. "Um so I'll be back at 3 love you and be careful please" oh innocent little Niall. He had no idea what my past had held. I nodded and waved. I ran up the drive way and opened the door. I could hear the screams of the fans from my dream. 'Your not worth it' played over and over in my mind. I shut the door and slid down it letting the tears soak my face. After about 5 minutes if pointless crying I stood up and locked the door. Niall had a key for when he came home. I walked up stairs and grabbed my laptop from my bed. I opened it and sat on my bed. I opened up twitter and closed my eyes. Afraid. Afraid of what people thought if me. What is America gonna be like if I'm just getting hate 24/7. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes I needed to know what it was like. Live a day in my brothers shoes. I logged into my account and took another breath. I saw the last tweet Niall had tweeted.

Two hours ago 'recordin studio #bored' I smiled at my brothers comment. I scrolled down a bit and saw down of the other boys accounts. I took another deep breath and tweeted 'strep throat is no fun' I looked at my screen I swallowed hard which hurt. I pressed the send key and shut my laptop right away. Instagram. Something I was much more comfortable with cuz I had a fake account which none of the boys fans knew about. I ran down stairs then slowed down cuz if my rib and my throat. I grabbed the family iPad that nobody really uses. I created a new account under my name and within 2 minutes I had 200 followers. I posted a picture that my mum took of me doing a front flip into the pool. Immediately I had a comment.

From: 1d_forever. Whoa you can do a front flip that's awesome. 😜

To: 1d_forever. Thanks so much love.

More comments of and bad rolled in. I followed most of the good ones and blocked most of the hate I got. Well this wasn't to bad. Was it? I posted some more then turned the iPad off. I slumped down on the couch and watched tv for the rest of the day

It had been about 4 hours when I heard Niall's laugh and the door slam. I sat up and watched all the boys stumble down the stairs. I waved and stood up to stretch out my back. Niall came over to me humming. Well someone's in a good mood. He through a box onto the couch and walked back to where the boys were standing. I ran upstairs hurting again. I've gotta stop doing that. I grabbed my laptop from the ground and walked back down stairs. I opened it up and typed "hello my other human amigos" the I hit the speak key and my computer talked my sentence. Hey all looked at me like I was an idiot. I smiled showing off my braces. "So that's what your gonna be using to speak for the next to days." Liam said. I nodded and smiled evilly. "Great" Louie's said sarcastically. I smiled and skipped over to my brother. "Here I got you a present" he said handing me the box of a brand new iPhone 4S. I hugged him and tore open the box. I turned it on and signed into my apple account. "this deserves a twit cam" Liam said standing up. I rolled my eyes and waited for my phone to load. Felicity had texted me to say her parents said yes. I showed my phone to Niall and he nodded. Liam suddenly reappeared on the couch with his laptop in his hands. All the boys joined him in the couch. I shook my head and flopped over into my stomach with my laptop.

"Hey guys we're all here today" Liam said into the mic. I smiled and typed into my laptop. "And I'm Kylie horan and your watching news talk 80 with um me and the rest if em" all the boys looked over at me with shocked looks on they're faces.

"Um ya and there's Kylie" Liam said pointing the camera at me. I smiled and sat up. "Yes that's right I am here to join you Harry styles, Liam Payne, zayn Malik, Louis Tomlinson and my idiot brother." Said the robotic voice."da hey" Niall said. "I luv u niall" i typed trying to look innocent. I ran to Niall and hugged him. "Oh yes the love between those to. The adorable little girl and the idiot brother" Louie's said laughing. I saw some comments pop up. I walked back over to my couch and layed back down. "Oh um ki some questions for you" Harry said peeking around the screen. I looked at him confused and stood up sitting back down in front of the couch. One said: hi Kylie your a big cutie here in the US but we have some questions for you :) ok so what's it like living with the boys. I pointed at the screen as if to say wait one second.i ran to my laptop and opened it walking back to the other couch. I typed "awesome most of the time" it spoke my words and I winked at the screen. More questions popped up and I'm guessing the boys got tired if it all being about me and turned on the tv. After about ten minutes I shut the lap top down and yawned. "What time is it" I typed and looked at the boys. "4:30 oh crap we have to be at an interview in like half an hour." Liam said texting someone. "I wanna come" I typed looking at then with a begging look. "You sure. I mean ya your not contagious but you sure you feel up to it" niall said skeptically. I nodded. all the boys exchanged looks. "Ok I guess but go change and take your medicine" Niall said. I smiled hugging him and walking up the stairs. I changed into a pair of skinny jeans and a tee shirt that said live to dream. I put on some vans and walked down the stairs. Niall was at the counter in the kitchen with a bag if chips in front Of him. I sat down at in a bar stool and he put a container of white liquid in front of me. I swallowed it and almost gagged. "What" I stuck out my tongue. "It can't be that bad"