Lust Over Love

Chapter Ten

    Kyungsoo's knuckles hits the wooden door and makes a sound that informs the people inside the cream house that there is a person outside.His face is not denying the distress he is being through and his eyes are not missing the chance to have darkness circling around it.He hasnt sleeping well like he used to.Neither eating well nor drinking the amount of water he should have.He is refusing to eat to food.He doesnt even know himself as to why he is doing this.He just did not feel to chunk on food.He just chug.on water forcely to keep himself have a little bit energy.His mind is whirling around with confused thoughts, this became usual, and his mind now hasnt the ability to comprehend deeply why he is having these thoughts, thats why he ask for his deer bestfriend, Luhan for help and at the same time a company.
    The knob of the door moves to side and makes a click sound, signalling it was unlocked and about to open.
     "Oh Kyungsoo!" Luhan's mother, Hyo Jae greets, giving her son's bestfriend a warm smile before she let him in.     
     "Luhan was still upstairs he said he is going to do some revisions.You can go there, I will bring some snacks for both of you later" she says and gestures for the small boy to go up stairs.She is in her mid thirthy's, young and beautiful.She married a chinese guy she met when she had a tour in China which bring them to have Luhan.Hyo Jae is a good woman, she is very hands on and she really love her family.Her relationship to her son is like an older sister or a noona and bestfriend thats why they are so close and open to each other.Sometimes Kyungsoo is envious of them and wishes the he has a mother like that not an always busy mother he has.
     "Thank you auntie" He says, bowing at her for respect.She smile again, sweetly this time and patted him on his back before he climb up the stairs.She look at him worriedly, not get to use in this kind of sight.She knows Kyungsoo as babbly child though his relationship in his parent is not as good as she has with her own son.Sometimes she pity him on his way in talking about his parent which is slightly rare too.She just sighs after the small boy leaves her eyes and go back to kitchen to prepare snacks to them.
     Kyungsoo memorized every corners of this house.It is quite small, enough for a family having a three members in it yet it is beautiful and comfortable.A house for Kyungsoo to be called is like this, having a happy and wonderful relationship of the family of people in it and  peaceful.Not peaceful because you are the only one inside a large house and theres no one to talk to.Peaceful because there is no one fighting or arguing over something unnecessary or senseless (just as his parents are when they are in their house), just full of silence with love emitting around the house.
    He knocks on the door before opening it and peeking his head between inside.
    "Lu?" he calls, catching the attention of the said male.
    "Kyungie !" Luhan shouts, jumping on his chair before running on his bestfriend.He embraces the doe eyed male and rub its back.
    "How are you ? though I know you are not right" He queries while leading him on his bed to sit.
    "My brain is a mess" Kyungsoo leans on Luhan.
    "I know but why? you did not tell me yet the reason" Kyungsoo looks up to his bestfriend and stares down at his hand while fiddling it.
     "what if you .. saw your bestfriend kissing his boyfriend and whispers sweet nothings on him then you suddenly felt a dagger stab your chest and your eyes continiously dropping tears?" He asks nervously and afraid of how bestfriend will react.Luhan just sighs and proceed on rubbing Kyungsoo's back.
    "clearly you like him or worst, love him" he answers.Luhan know who Kyungsoo is refering to but he want to confirm it by his bestfriend himself.
    "what if you have a boyfriend and you love him" the male in his arms asks looking at him and he looks back.
    "well .. maybe you just think you still love him but your heart says no because the one you love now is your bestfriend"
     Kyungsoo stays silent and did not utter a word anymore while Luhan waits patiently on him.
    "so you mean you saw Jongin and Baekhyun kissing?" Luhan asks, ending the deafing silence.The doe eyed male nods in answer and stares back again in his hands.
    "I saw them too one time and it was shockingly new now that Baekhyun wasnt show nervousness and doesnt flinching in Jongin's touch though he is like that at first" Luhan says, making Kyungsoo stare at him and shock that Luhan thoughts is same as his."And I think sooner or later he will finally let Jongin touch him" he continues causing his bestfriend pull away on his arms and sit straight.
    "y-you th-think?" he asks though he dont want to, scared that he will hear the truth.
    "yes and im sure of it" he replies, glancing at his bestfriend beside him."why? are you afraid that when that time comes Jongin will not be there anymore when you are aroused?" Kyungsoo did not answer the question, letting it just repeat on his mind.
    "You know I think its okay since you are ending your set up wi-"
    "NO!!" Luhan jumps at his sudden outburst oblivious at the tears forming in his eyes.
    "why though Soo? Baekhyun is Jongin's boyfriend so its okay actually better than you because you arent his and beside you are no scratch that I mean YOU WERE just f*ck buddies so you dont have the rights to stop it"
    "and how about me?" Kyungsoo asks, tears trickling down on his cheeks.
    "I dont know" Luhan shrugs "I know Chanyeol doesnt fond of that idea" he states and embrace Kyungsoo in his arms again.Silence takes them again and sniffling is the only thing can be heard.
    "Do you still love Chanyeol?" Luhan asks.He can feel how Kyungsoo tense in his arms.
    "y-yes" Kyungsoo answers though theres something inside him says not anymore.
    "you are not sure .. think of it .. did you still love him?" Luhan question again and Kyungsoo not missed the serious tone on his voice.The question repeat and repeat again and again on his head.It is like a music disc that are playing but it is already damage, repeating a certain line or lyric over and over again.Until a knock on the door interrupt them and Luhan's question was left unanswered.

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    Chanyeol holds both Kyungsoo's hand and stare fondly in its eyes, oblivious that the in front of him wasnt doing the same.Kyungsoo looks away, feeling slightly odd at the moment.He cant look back at those eyes like he used and loved to do but now he cant.He just cant.
    Chanyeol squeezes his hands to get his eyes back to him and at the same time his attention."are you okay? you seem not in yourself?" his boyfriend asks.He glance back at him and got to witness the worry in its eyes.
    "n-no im fine" he replies and smiles weakly.Chanyeol frowns at his behaviour.He is usually happy everytime they are together but there is something weird in him but Chanyeol cant read his face.
    He come here from Luhan's house to have a date and tell to Chanyeol about going to Sehun's birthday party with him tomorrow.
    "can you come tomorrow with me at Sehun's place? its his birthday and he said I should come with you" the smaller questions.
    "sadly no baby .. Im really sorry I cant because dad wants me to look over for the company tomorrow because he's going to a business trip with mom" He sighs, looking apologetically.
    "o-okay" he says.
    "Im going to call Jongin .. he is coming too right ? Im going to tell him to look after you" he states causing Kyungsoo's eyes widen and immediately deny the idea.
    "n-no its .. I mean I am going to be okay" he say assuringly.He hasnt talking to tanned male after seeing him kissing Baekhyun.He dont have a courage face him though he doesnt know why is shy now in front of him.
    "okay just be careful, call me if something happen" Chanyeol says, earning a nod from his boyfriend before he pulled it for a kiss.Kyungsoo breath hitches and pushes Chanyeol due to shock while the tall male stares at him weirdly.He mumble a quiet 'sorry' and Chanyeol smiles, understanding that he maybe he is just shock at Chanyeol's move.The tall male leans again and Kyungsoo gulps nervously.He just close his eyes and wait to land Chanyeol's lips to his.He kiss back but Chanyeol isnt noticing that he is just kissing him back forcefully.

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Lame .. I know! *sighs*
I dont feel well now dunno why maybe I drown myself in excitement on EXO's comeback.
Thats it thank you fellow EXO Loves and everyone!