Lust Over Love

Chapter Eighteen

   Kyungsoo shuffles in his bed. His confinement since Minseok and Lay came into him telling rude comments he dont deserve to be said of, well kind of. His limbs and eyes were sore from crying and not moving. He wanted to die. He dont want to live in this hell anymore. He had a little talk to his mother as to why he hadnt been in school for a week. The head teacher called her to know and to ask why Kyungsoo is not showing any appearance in school and why he did not passing any excuse letter. She responded that she doesnt know because she hasnt coming home for a week because of the business trip. She came home immediately after hearing this and he spotted his son crying and bundled in his bed. And thats when something clicks in her mind, how she is not fulfilling up her role as a mother to Kyungsoo. How she doesnt even know about his other friends aside from Jongin and other things about her own son. She realize how she really knew everything on him and it was a little rather than she expected. And Kyungsoo was thankful to that atleast he has his mother now looking after him and making sure he is eating and taking a sleep. She also cheers up the smaller to get on with his love and Jongin will come to him to apologize. Kyungsoo tells her everything though it is embarassing and his mother was really shock about this but her son explain everything and she understands.
     Kyungsoo feel a little bit better now and he is planning to go back in school because his mother told him to. He shuffles again into more comfortable position before a knock vibrates in door causing him to look up from the covers and shouting a soft 'come in'. His mother head appears between the gaps and he smiles warmly.
    "Soo .. someone is here for you" She announces while smiling fondly at his son. The small male tries to think of someone who will visit him. It wouldnt Luhan and Sehun because they drop by yesterday bringing him some jjajangmyeon and they watch a movie that has them constantly laughing. Kyungsoo had a nice time with them and he is now feeling a little bit better knowing he has people beside him to make him okay and happy.
    "who is it mom?" he asks curiously as he sits up in bed. There is a shuffle behind his mother and his mother just smile ushering the person behind her to come in. Kyungsoo blinks shockly at the same time the tears are forming in his eyes. He really didnt expect this person to come here.
    "I'll leave you two alone .. and Soo im sorry baby I will be home late so you will need to order for your dinner if you dont have an energy to cook." Her mother states, pecking Kyungsoo's forehead muttering a 'goodluck and be safe' to him, getting a response of nod still staring at the person who had just come in.
    The soft thud of the door is the last thing can be heard in the room before everything is set in silence. The small male looks on his lap, playing with his fingers not knowing what to say.
    "S-Soo .." The tanned male starts, voice hoarse and full of nervousness. He sits in the edge of the bed looking at his bestfriend with apologetic look. The stress and depression lingering on his face but for Kyungsoo he is still stunning. The smaller male just hums in response, face not showing any emotion. To admit, he dont know what to feel, if hatred or happiness. Hatred from what Jongin did to him and happiness as Jongin finally will back to him. He is doubting this situation too, as to because Jongin will be here just to ask a help from him and he promised to himself that he will not be stupid to help him without apologizing. He is just in the process of healing and now the cause of it is in front of him. He does not have an idea if this good or bad.
     "I .. Im s-sorry .. I kmow this wasnt enough but .. Im really sorry Soo for what I did to you.." Jongin says, tears swelling in his eyes as he reach up for Kyungsoo's hand as he scoots closer.
      "Im really sorry I am so stupid for telling that to Baekhyun and he tell his friend. I am sorry because you are suffering because of me. I am sorry if I act like a stupid asshole that think only for himself. I know this words wasnt enough you can punch me slap me . everything I will accept it becaause I know I deserve all of it. I will do anything just please forgive and I can wait deacades for you to forgive me." Jongin finishes, holding Kyungsoo's hand and he squeezes it slightly. Kyungsoo looks up, meeting Jongin's eyes and he can see the sincereness in it. Their eyes lock for seconds until it turn to minutes, both has tears flowing from it.
    "I .. I dont know Jongin.." He responds looking away from Jongin. He dont want to forgive him, not now, not just yet. He is still in the process of healing. More tears roll down on his cheeks. He dont if it tears of joy or sadness.
    "Its okay Soo I can wait for you to accept me back in your life. I know I put you in hell and I want to kill myself for doing it. I am really regreting everything I did to you this last few weeks so I understand but please Soo I hope you will take me back." The tanned male finishes giving a last squeeze and wiping Kyungsoo's tears before standing up.
     "And I hope you will forgive me soon cause I cant wait to show how you are special to me and I would be lonely without you." from this Kyungsoo head snaps looking at the tanned male with confusion written all over his face.
    "you have Baek-" He try to protest but cut off by Jongin.
    "He broke up with me yesterday after knowing what I did .. after Luhan and Sehun came into me. I already talk to Xiumin and Lay they say they will apologize to you when you came back to school. And they really hate me now for hurting Baekhyun. I am happy now though I found someone I have by my side ever since and I am so stupid for not realizing my feelings for him" Jongin explains, still standing up in front of Kyungsoo and staring at him.
   "w-what?" Kyungsoo croaks as more tears dropping from his large eyes.
    "You were there since the beggining. You never left my side and you are always there to make happy whenever Im sad. You always giving advices and cheering me up whenever Im down.. And Im so stupid for not realizing that earlier than I should. You are amazing person Kyungsoo. You are perfect and I love you." Kyungsoo's eyes widen in shock amd he pinches himself secretly making sure he wasnt dreaming."Not just a bestfriend but a someone who adores you. You may thinking this is so sudden. I dont even know I had it in myself Soo, I am really stupid." Jongin confesses, locking his eyes with the small boy in front of him. His eyes show sincereness and fondness while Kyungsoo cannot believe in him. Kyungsoo's mind spinning with thoughts. He dont know what to do a while ago he is mad at Jongin for making him suffer and now he is confessing his love for him abd he want to jump in happiness because of that.
   Jongin sits beside him again and holds both of his hands. Another wave of tears flow in his face as he looks up. He wants to give himself to Jongin but he is afraid that he will hurt himself more but his mind also says he give himself and be happy with Jongin like he wanted a month ago.
   "I know you cant still forgive me but I can wai-" Jongin starts to says again but he is pulled of by his shirt and before he knows it Kyungsoo's lips is in his own. Jongin was shock but closes his eyes and feel more of Kyungsoo's sweet lips. They pull away after a few seconds, resting their foreheads together, lost in the eyes of each other.
    "Im really sorry Soo I am stupid-" Jongin continues but another kiss from Kyungsoo makes him stop. Kyungsoo shouldnt give himself this easily but in his heart he knows this is right. Maybe they will start and now he knows he is going to healed with Jongin in his side.
    "enough I forgive you silly just kiss me" Kyungsoo mutters in Jongin's mouth, happy tears falling from his eyes while the tanned male chuckles in response and kisses Kyungsoo again. They both know they have love each other more than a bestfriend could, but maybe that love had been covered in a pile of lust that they didnt notice they had it in theirselves but now they are happy they know.

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Finally they are together!
yehetttttttt!! though it is quite fast. XD
thanks for reading and sorry for my errors.