Lust Over Love

Chapter Seventeen

Jongin stares blankly at space. Confusion filling his mind and body. He is so sure something isnt right last night as he had sex again with Baekhyun pleading in him as they go his house because Baekhyum's mom are out until dinner. When his hands lands on Baekhyun or while he is touching Baekhyun in all of his angles and glory, something isn't right. He knows that wasnt the body he is used to touch and it was just like of it in his eyes but something inside him telling him that body is not meant for him.
His bestfriend, Kyungsoo, filling his mind also. Thinking about his condition as to why Kyungsoo is not showing an appearance in their school for a few days. Maybe he sick or still broken from everything that happen to him but something tells him also otherwise.
    Tears prickles down on his tanned cheeks as he thinks about Kyungsoo. His regret of doing and saying horrible to that is uncalled for drifts off his mind again. Kyungsoo, who is always there for him since the beginning. His bestfriend that gave his virginity to him just to ease the lust, heat, and hard on in his body when he accidentally watch a porn video that Sehun send as a joke. He feels horrible for not appreciating Kyungsoo from the start his beautiful best that makes him smile whenever he is sad because he and Baekhyun got into fight. His bestfriend that helps him in everything eventhough it causes to smaller to forget his own priority on a thing he is thinking of before Jongin came and rush to him and asking for help. His bestfriend thats gives everything and hands him anything he ask for. He is not a bestfriend for Kyungsoo, he cannot be considered as that, its inconsiderate because he clearly did not deserve it. He takes everything for granted and turning it back opposite of the good it gives.
"babe are you alright?" Baekhyun asks from beside him, causing him to look over at worried Baekhyun. Something pops out in his head. Is it love that he feels to him until now? ofcourse he loves Beakhyun so much so why his own mind doubting him in love about his boyfriend.
   "ofcourse" He smiles not genuinely but his boyfriend is oblivious to it.
   "okay" he says packing up his as the bell rings signifying that they can finally go home.
   They walk out of the form room and they met Luhan and Sehun waiting for them looking disappointed and mad. Luhan glances at Baekhyun before turning his glance back at the tanned male. Jongin whispers in Baekhyun's ear saying he go first and wait for him at the car. He peck Baekhyun's lips who nods in understanding.
    Baekhyun started to walk off after giving Sehun and Luhan a smile. Luhan walks closer to Jongin and once he is mear enough he slapped the tanned male's cheek. Jongin was shock at the action while Sehun just looking at him intently not daring to stop his boyfriend from hurting their bestfriend. Students falters in their step watching the scene that has commence and because Luhan's slap echoes around the hallway.
    "Jerk! Asshole! " Luhan yells, tears streaming down on his face. Jongin stare dumbfoundedly, not knowing what to say or how to react. A push from his chest, making him stumble backwards and his bottom hit the floor. He stare at Sehun who pushed him and now has tears on his face too.
    "F*ck you Kim Jongin!" Sehun shouts, anger flooding on his face as he look at his bestfriend.
    "what the f*ck is happening to both of you? what did I do?" The tanned male in the floor asks confusely. Sehun lifts him up by his shirt while Luhan just glares as his tears still running down on his face.
     "Are you that heartless and numb after all Kyungsoo did for you!" Sehun yells close to his face making the tanned male turn his face away. More students crowd around them, shock written all over their faces of what they heard some other gasps.
     "Kyungsoo has been absent for a few days because of embarassment and he feels so betrayed because of you!" Luhan yells, walking closer at Jongin. "Your pretty boyfriend tell to his bestfriends that Kyungsoo came to you and touch you after Sehun's party. Then after that they went to Kyungsoo calling him a whore, telling him swear words and throwing rude comments abouth him touching other men that is owned by someone at the crowd while Kyungsoo stands there not knowing why he is accused for something he did'nt do because this is your fault why you two slept together that night. Your fucking desperate penis drag him out that night much to his protest and now you are telling us what did you do?" Luhan yells in one breath while Jongin stare shockly, mind blank at the moment.
    "You thought we didnt know you drag him out that night though he is protesting? Kyungsoo cried about that to us! At first we didnt believe but the way he cries we confirmed that he is telling the truth. He is protesting that night because you two already talk about to stop sleeping together and he is doing it for Chanyeol but here you are pleading him that will be the last and he gave in because he is your angel bestfriend then next thing we know that Baekhyun found out and your playing innocent saying its Kyungsoo fault why you two are having sex behind his back." Luhan adds tears streaming down in his face, while hardly poking Jongin's chest with every words spilling in his lips.
     "And then here you are so happy that finally you took Baekhyun's virginity and you now can touch him! But there is one person who is always there for you, who you were you touching before and now he is suffering because of your fucking selfish self!" Sehun adds, anger painting on his face. "how could you do this to him? he is not just a toy that once its over used and you found new toy you will just trash him anywhere and leave!" Luhan sobs knowing how Kyungsoo has been through and he feels so sorry for the small male. Jongin stare dumbfoundedly, registering the words that he heard from his bestfriends. He is mad now at Baekhyun's friend for doing so, as well as his guilty is eating him alive for putting Kyungsoo in hell. He feels more guilty knowing Kyungsoo did not fight back to Baekhyun's friends and keep on his mouth shut. His bestfriend is not the one to be blame, but its him, but instead he is the one that makes this story. Kyungsoo is the antagonist while he is the protagonist, antagonist who is always suffering in sin he is accused for doing so but it in reality its not him in the first place while he is the protagonist the reason why the antagonist is suffering.
   "I .. Im sorry .. I did-" Jongin try to apologize but a voice stop him from continuing his words.
   "I-Is that true Jongin?" Baekhyun croaks tear now spilling on his puppy eyes. Jongin turns his gaze to find Baekhyun behing him, before turning back to his bestfriends. Luhan gestures for him to say the truth and Jongin looks back at Baekhyun before nodding his head stupidly. Baekhyun sobs more, hand come to cup his mouth in disbelief shaking his head at this. He walks towards the tanned male before punching its chest halfheartedly, not having enough energy to make it hard for Jongin to choke on his death. More students crowd around them watching it like a famous drama they watch. Some girls stare disappointedly at the gorgeous tanned male they are dreaming of and now it turn to disgustment. Some students that whisper about how Kyungsoo is a flirt or whore for touching a male that is taken feels sorry and regretting for saying all of it.
   "How y-you could do this to me? H-how d-dare to do this to m-me?" Baekhyun sobs head falling down, staring at floor causing his tears to drop in it.
    "Im s-sorry Baek .. I re-really do .. I didnt mean to hurt you" Jongin says as he holds Baekhyun's shoulder to keep him up but a shake from it causing him to realease it.
     "Sorry cant be enough in a little bit Jongin .. You f*cking used me! You f*cking humilated me! I felt so disgusting and stupid for myself .. I know you love Kyungsoo more than friend should .. you have it on yourself Jongin .. You are just so blind to see it. The way you talk and look at him? I can see more fondness in your eyes than the fondness I see in your eyes when you are looking at me. Were done I dont want to see you ever in my existence" Baekhyun says breathless before walking off. Luhan shakes his head and drag Sehun away from the crowd, students parting from them giving a space to like they just did to Baekhyun. Jongin falls on floor again, mind becoming more a mess every second. Questions whirling around his mind. If is Baekhyun is right, if Kyungsoo will forgive him, if thiese are the answers to confusion that filling his mind before or if he still deserve to live in this world but most especially, if he really did love Kyungsoo more than a bestfriend will do and what if he does? Is this because they sleep together? Indeed not. And he has one whole night to find out by himself.

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You deserve all of that nini ! and you really to fix something very important to you.
Anyway tahnk you for reading and sorry for my errors.