heart breaker // jack maynard

sixteen

*Y/n pov*

It's been at least two weeks since the incident with Jack and so much has happened.
I decided I would live with Joe and Caspar for a bit because I'm getting my apartment done up. Luke helped me move all the stuff I needed and I finally got to see Belle again. Unfortunately, no pets are allowed in Joe's place so I can't take her with me but Luke has no problem minding her.
I still haven't talked to Jack. I ignored all his calls for the first week and after that they just became less and less frequent so I guess he gave up.
I miss him.
No.
I don't.
I have Joe now anyway.

Oh yeah, me and Joe are dating... After the incident, if that's what you want to call it, we became a lot closer. And then the night that I moved in we were watching a movie together and he asked me how I felt about him. I told him I liked him, one thing led to another and I woke up in his bed with no clothes, a headache and a relationship.
Joe's the nicest guy I've ever met and I'm so lucky to have him but as much as I hate to admit it, I'm not sure if I really do like him.
Okay, I know I sound like a dick, and you probably think I'm using him, but honestly I don't even know anymore. I just can't think straight and I don't know what to do.

*Joe's pov*

"Y/n?"
The blue eyed brunette I had fallen in love with turned around to face me.
"Hey Joe!" She smiled, patting the sofa beside her, indicating I should sit down. I collapsed on the seat beside her and she put her warm arm around me.
"Supernatural?" She whispered in my ear, shaking her bottom lip slightly. I rolled my eyes and turned on the tv show she had dedicated her life to. I felt her mouth mould into a smile and her puppy dog eyes lit up. She leant over and kissed my cheek and my face turned red. She smelled of roses and powder and her favourite fruit tea. She was utterly intoxicating and I loved it.
I kissed her back and then turned up the volume on the tv.
"I love you," she said suddenly, smiling up at me. 
I tried to reply but the words wouldn't come out. My stomach turned and I felt sick. Why?
Because I know that she's lying. I know she doesn't love me. I know she misses Jack and I know the only reason we're together is because she's heartbroken and I'm desperate.
I know the logical thing to do would just be to break up with her, or something like that.
But I just can't bring myself to do it. I've loved her for so long and finally I get what I always wanted and no matter how wrong it is I just can't end it...
I was snapped out of my trail of thought by a loud scream from the tv. I looked at the screen and then back at y/n's confused and concerned face.
I smiled weakly at her.
"I love you too."

*Jack's pov*

I miss her so fucking much. I miss the nights we spent together (*wink wink* - Orla) and our cute dates and her kisses and just everything about her.
I should be over her by now and yet It's been 2 weeks and she's all that's on my mind. Every few minutes I try ringing her but she never answers. I know she hates me and she's not the only one. Joe's completely avoiding me and  the others never fail to constantly remind how much I fucked up...
*knock knock knock*
I took off my headphones and looked over at my bedroom door. "Come in." I announced.
The door opened and Conor walked in. I sighed.
"Hey bro," he said, sitting on the chair beside me.
"What do you want Conor?"
I didn't mean to sound so rude, I'm just fed up and I haven't slept properly in a few days.
"Jeez, I only said hello," he replied. "Anyway I just wanted to see how you were doing."
"I'm doing fine. You can leave now."
Conor rolled his eyes at my response. The room was quiet for a minute and I picked up my phone again.
"You really miss her, don't you?"
He said suddenly.
My head shot up. "Who?" I asked. Of course I knew he was talking about y/n but I didn't want to admit it.
"You know darn well Jack Maynard," he replied, chuckling slightly.
"Then the answer is no." I said firmly, still not making eye contact.
"That's the biggest lie you've ever told Jack, and you once tried to convince a girl you had an 8 inch."
A muffled laugh came from my throat.
"Look, I'm no Sherlock Holmes but it's really fucking obvious you miss her like crazy. You've practically stayed locked up in this room for the two weeks, your whole call log just consists of her name, you barely even sleep anymore and all the videos you've uploaded since then have been prerecorded. You're a mess without her Jack and you know it."
I let out the breath I didn't know I had been holding in. I looked at my brother and then slowly nodded.
"Ye..." I mumbled weakly.
'Why am I so upset over her? This is what I do, isn't it? I break girls hearts and I don't give a flying fuck. I just move on... but with y/n I can't.' I thought to myself.
Conor laughed and said, "how blind are you?"
Okay... Apparently I said that out-loud.
"What do you mean?" I asked Conor.
He stood up and walked towards the door.
"You, my friend, are in love."
And he walked out.

Thank you all so much for all you support and kind words on my little apology note, it really means a lot. Obviously I don't know when I'll next update, but here's chapter 16! - Orla xx
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