Love is Insane (AHS Fanfic)

This Can't Be Happening

Clem's POV

I don't have any words right now. What if my dad's death was my fault? I never tried to talk to him except for at dinner. I never went to his room to see him except for once, but his door was locked. I never thought about him except for on Christmas, Easter, his birthday, and Father's Day. I never asked what was wrong. I have to find that suicide note. That probably says his reason for killing himself. I've thought about killing myself before, actually it was not to long ago. I never cared about what other people said about me, but now I'm starting to care a lot. That girl who bothered me the first day of school is still bothering me now. She 's spreading rumors about me and calling me names, and I actually care about what she's telling me and telling everybody else. I actually give a shit about what people think of me. What's wrong with me? 

"Mom I need to be alone right now," I sobbed.

"Okay. I understand," she responded while bawling her eyes out.

I just cried and cried and cried. I thought that my dad wouldn't talk to me and my mom because he didn't like us, but there's a reason now. I don't know what that reason was, but I will find out. I felt an arm go around my shoulders. It was Tate.

"It's my fault," I cried.

Tate pulled me into a hug. He was the first person who cared about me besides my mom.

"It's not, so don't say that," Tate said to try and make me feel better.

"Maybe he wouldn't have killed himself if I talked to him more," I cried. "I never thought he would do this."

"It's not your fault. Your mom had to have been hiding something because she didn't want to show you the suicide note."

"What?"

"Something in the suicide note probably said something that your mom didn't want you to know."

"You really think my mom is keeping a secret from me?"

"Why else would she not show you the note?"

"I don't know, but I do want to try and find the note. I want to know the truth. But maybe lets find the note tomorrow. I'm tired."

"Me too."

He laid down right next to me and wrapped his arms around me.

"Am I in a dream," I asked Tate as tears ran down my face.

"Just close your eyes and forget about everything," Tate told me.

I closed my eyes and just pretended that this was all a dream. I tried to make myself believe this entire mess wasn't real even though it probably was.

(I hope you liked it and thank you so much for reading! I'm so so so sorry that I haven't updated this in such a long time, but school just ended and I will be updating this a lot. Also, I'm sorry that this was so short. I promise the next chapter will be long and interesting. Vote and comment please!)

June 23, 2016