*I don't want your sympathy. That's not why I wrote this. I just needed someone to tell. Someone to listen. No one listens better than some random person you've never met. They don't know you and can't judge or form opinions about you. A new start.*
I remember our first fight like it was yesterday
When really it was exactly a month ago today
Ironic, eh? How our final fight that ended our friendship
Was on the same day
As the fight that made us stronger
It was a stupid fight
It was over the September 11th Attacks
See, told you it was stupid
I denied everything you said
Told you it was all a lie
Then you just left
I cried
Over someone that I'd just met
Only 3 days previous
It amazed me
The feelings I'd held for you
You once told me
It was an instant attraction
I laughed it off
Not thinking any more about it
Till now
You were right
A few hours after our fight
I apologized and tried my hardest
Because all I wanted was you
And then the most amazing thing happened
You forgave me
I don't think I'd ever been happier
Then I was at that moment
We'd grown close
I told you my biggest fears
Told you what made me happy
You always gave me all these compliments
I denied them
But on the inside
They were the best thing ever
Today, that all changed
I did something horribly wrong
That I'll regret for the rest of my life
And you left again
But this time
I don't think you're coming back
My panic attacks kicked in
The tears, the throwing up
And as I sit here writing this
I can only hope that you remember
What you told me awhile back
But even through all this hurt
I know that if given the chance,
I'd still go through this hurt
Just for that month of pure happiness again.
