Today
When I came home
I was so excited
Because I was going
To finally get to talk to you again
But then
I finally see
That you can't talk
I was so upset.
Talking to you is the best
It pushes me to do all these things
Talking to you
Helps me to eat
I haven't eaten in two days
Because I simply didn't feel the need to
Without you pushing me to
Talking to you
Helps me feel like someone cares
Like someone wants me
Or needs me in their life
I don't know why
But without you
I don't ever feel that way
Today, I was so freaked out
That I had another panic attack
But this time
Something went wrong I guess
I started choking
And crying at the same time
It was the worst pain
It felt like your lungs
Were on fire
And leaping up your throat
But they couldn't
Because it was closed
I'm sort of okay now
Why anyone cares
I don't really know
But just know
Without you
I don't think
That I can be me
