"Are you okay?" Aj asks as I'm packing my stuff. "Yes. I'm fine." I lie as I keep packing my stuff. "You don't look okay." She tells me continuing to fold her clothes.
I stop packing and look at her, "Do you think I'm a bad person?" I whisper, this time she stops packing up and looks at me. "Of course not."
"What I did to Emma wasn't right. You know it. I know it. Everyone knows it." I say with shame. "It might've not been right but you're only human, Paige. You make mistakes, I make mistakes, everyone makes mistakes."
"So you don't think I'm a bad person?" I ask sitting down on my bed. She takes a seat on her bed in front of me.
"No, of course not. You're a very sweet person. You were always nice to me, even when I had no friends. When everyone was against me, you still were friendly and sweet. A bad person doesn't do that, now do they? You're also very selfless. You always think of others before you think of yourself."
"But I am selfish, Aj." I say my eyes filling up with tears. "I'm so selfish." I repeat my warm tears falling from my eyes. "You're not selfish, Paige." Aj says leaning in and rubbing my knee.
"I am, I am! I like Roman, I want Roman but I also want Emma to be my best friend. See what I mean?" I cover my face and try to stop crying.
"I'm really tired. Emotionally and physically. I'm tired of crying, I'm tired of being weak." I sob and she sits besides me hugging me.
"You're not weak. Trust me, I know what you're feeling. There was a time in my life where I cried and cried, and I tried to hard to be strong. Sometimes you can't be strong. Sometimes you just have to let it all out. Like I said before, you're only human. It'll all get better, I know that's hard to believe but trust me it will get better. Just give it time."
"Thank you. I really mean it. Thank you, for everything." I hug her and it makes me feel better. Having a friend, having someone to talk to, having someone to hug . . . Feels good. It makes this hideous storm a little easy to overcome.
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It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply. -- d.j
"Paige, you will be in a match tonight. You'll be teaming on with Aj, to go against the Bella Twins." Jane says.
I nod my head as she walks away. Tonight is my official return to Raw. After weeks of not wrestling and participating in Raw or Smackdown or live events. I'm both excited and nervous.
It's been two days since the fight with Emma and all I think about is everything that happened. I haven't seen Roman at all, maybe he's trying to avoid me. Maybe it's for the best.
"Paige have you heard that we are on a match against each other?" Brie says as I walk in the locker room, only the Bellas and Aj are here right now. "Yes ma'am." I say and she smiles, "Get ready to get beat."
"Okay, you two swear. But the reality is that Paige and I will beat you two." Aj says skipping over in her new attire. It consists of Deans initials along with "Ambrose asylum" and a spider printed on the back.
The Bella's and Aj start to fake fight and smack talk and I laugh. My friends haven't mentioned anything about Emma, they haven't blamed me or anything. I really appreciate the fact that they don't talk about it because I'm not ready to talk about it right now.
Emma walks in the locker room and suddenly they stop joking around. We all look at Emma as she walks in with Summer and JoJo.
Aj looks at Summer who smiles at her making Aj frown. "Emma are you having a match tonight?" Nikki asks breaking the silence. Emma ignores her takes out her attire.
"Sorry, she doesn't talk to traitors." Summer says. "What?" Nikki says and I immediately hear the anger in her voice. "You heard right. I don't talk to traitors." Emma says coldly.
"How am I a traitor?" Nikki asks crossing her arms over her chest. "You knew about it all. Actually you three knew about it all. Instead of telling me you hid it from me. You picked a whore over me." She looks right into my eyes when she says this and it feels like I've been stabbed in the chest.
"If I were you I'd be careful. Nikki she might take Seth away from you, or she might take Dean away from you Aj, or even better she might have an affair with your husband Brie."
She smiles and Brie steps up but Nikki stops her. "Don't, it's not worth it." She says and Brie huffs. "Of course Paige is a whore. Look who she hangs out with. She learned from the best." Summer says looking at Aj.
"She took Roman away from you kind of like how Aj took Dean away from me." Aj smiles and it makes Summer scowl. "The thing is, he wasn't your man. He never was Summer, and never will be."
Summer is about to say something but Emma stops her. "Let's go." She says. "Emma, please. Don't hang out with her, she will fill up your head with things." Aj says but Emma keeps walking.
JoJo looks at us in an apologetic way but doesn't say anything and follows them out. It feels like I'm frozen and I didn't even have the guts to talk to Emma.
I look at my friends and sigh, "I'm sorry guys." I say looking at the ground. "Sorry for causing all of this."
"It's not your fault." Nikki says and Aj and Brie nod. But it's all my fault. Why can't they see?
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Loving Him Is Red* WWE Fanfic
Fanfiction"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb." He reads off the notebook. "What a stupid lamb." I whisper knowing the quote by memory. "What a sick masochist lion." He sighs looking in my eyes.
