Loving Him Is Red* WWE Fanfic

Part 44

"Paige, Paige, hey beating your head against the wall is not going to solve anything." Randy says as I continue to bang my head.

"Maybe it'll give me a concussion or maybe it'll even kill me, I don't know." I say with a groan. "Hey! Don't say that." He says pulling me away from the wall.

I lean against it and slide down to the floor to sit. He sits beside me and looks at me. "I'm so messed up." I say staring at the wall in front of me.

"You're not." He says, I stay quiet for a few seconds and then finally look at him. "I'm sorry." I say with a blushed face. "For what?"

"You know for what. For kissing you while ago. I told you how I hated the way people lied and used people and I did that. I used you to get him jealous and I'm sorry. I'm such a sucky friend." I bite the inside of my cheek until I feel it bleed.

"I know you didn't mean to. You weren't thinking at that time. Paige, I still like you but I know you don't like me that way. It's fine because you never gave me hopes or anything like that. I just can't stand you being sad." He says.

"Thanks for not making me feel like poop." I say with a smile, he smiles back and then stops smiling, "But seriously I can't stand you not being happy. Talk to Roman. Do it."

"I'm just-" he cuts me off, "I know. You're mad, sad, and hurt. Love is complicated as hell but you can't just give up. Give him a chance to explain things and then you'll understand. You'll know what to do then."

I nod my head, "You're really nice. I appreciate your advice. You shouldn't be hung up on someone like me." I say, he smiles. "I'll find someone eventually."

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and all of the sudden i felt really tired.
like the world had drained me for everything that i had. --bgt

"Paige." Aj says, I finally stop staring at the wall and look at her. "Yes?" I ask. "I asked if you're ready." She says as she grabs her suitcase.

"Yeah, I'm ready." I say getting off the bed and grabbing my suitcase. "How're things with Roman?" She asks as we walk out. "Well if I can know." She then says shyly.

I shrug, "I haven't talked to him. He tried to talk to me yesterday but I kissed, Randy." I say and she stops waking and gasps. "Shut up! Did you really?"

I nod my head and she gasps again. "So like Randy and you...?" She trails off and I shake my head no. "No. Randy is just a friend and I was really crappy for kissing him to make Roman jealous."

"Wait so you kissed him in front of Roman?" She asks, "Yeah." I say remembering it all. Roman probably doesn't want to talk anymore. I shouldn't care but I do.

"Oh my, well he deserved it for ignoring you and acting the way he was." She says, "Yeah. I was just really hurt. I didn't tell none of you but that model looking girl kissed Roman that night at the club."

We get in the elevator and she looks at me surprised, "Wow." She says, "Yeah and apparently they were a thing because she said they almost got married."

"Holy cow, this story has more twists than a race course." She says, "Right. Like everything is just a mess. A huge, huge, mess." The elevator door opens and we get out to the lobby.

"Baby! I missed you!" Dean screams as he runs to Aj and literally almost tackles her. "I missed you too, silly." She says as he picks her up and hugs her. "Awww, goals." Nikki says pretending to wipe a fake tear.

"Eww you guys are gross." I say with a chuckle. Dean puts Aj down and he smirks, "Jealous much turd?"

"Totally jealous twatwaffle." I say, Aj leans in to me and whispers, "We will talk about it later." I nod my head. "Aww can I know the secret?" Dean asks.

"No. Girl stuff honey. Now come on get my suitcase." Aj says walking towards the door, "I love it when she bosses me around." Dean says with a wink. "Gag." I say pretending to gag. He laughs and walks away with Aj's suitcase.

I grab mine and start walking to the buses since we're moving places again. I pick a random bus because it doesn't matter where I get on anymore.

I'm struggling to put my suitcase where it goes but after a bit I finally can get it in place. "Paige?" A voice says. I turn around and almost lose my breath.

"Emma." I say almost whispering. "I miss you." She says, I feel like crying, "I miss you too." I say blinking fast to stop my tears.

"I've just been thinking too much about everything. I'm not mad anymore, just sad." She says with a small sniffle. "Emma don't cry." I say my tears falling. Seeing a person you care about cry hurts too much.

"I really like, Roman. I like him so much and I know that no matter what he's going to like you." She says wiping her tears. "I could ask you to not talk to him at all but that'll just be shitty from my part. I finally understand that there's no way I can change his feeling for you."

"Emma I really care about you and I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry because I never told you how I felt about, Roman. I should've told you about my feelings since they started." I say looking at the floor.

"I understand things happen and I'm sorry too. I treated you horribly, I started hanging out with people that made me act different. I don't expect you or any of my friends to forgive me for the way I acted." She says, "Emma, of course they'll forgive you. You're our friend. You can come and talk to us and it'll all be the way it was."

She shakes her head no and looks at me, "I can't go back." I sigh, "But why?" She continues to look at me and I see her eyes fill up with tears again.

"I love you Paige, I really do. I love you so much. You're like my sister and I care so much about you but I can't do this. Not right now anyways. I can't be your friend because I still like Roman, I can't talk to you because the way I feel towards, Roman. Maybe one day I'll get over my feelings. Maybe one day I'll be able to talk to you. Maybe one day I'll be able to look at Roman different. But right now I can't, I can't because that's just wrong. I can't be your friend and like the boy you might end up with. It wouldn't be right. I hope you understand and this hurts. This hurts me so much. It's killing me because I don't want to be away from you but I can't, not right now."

My sight is so blurry from the tears falling from my eyes. She hugs me tightly and I hug her back. "I love you too, Emma. I don't want to be away from you. I'm sorry." I say sobbing into her shoulder.

After a while we pull away, I look at her once again and then she turns around and walks away. I feel a huge hole in my heart as I watch her walk away.

It feels like I've lost half of me.

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Okay this is one of the final chapters! I hope you guys enjoyed it and like mentioned before I have had a blast writing this story. Thank you for the votes and comments it's appreciated! Also I'm currently writing a Neth Bellins story for all the Neth shippers. xoxo ;*