Sydnei POV:
2 days later
*Banging on door*
??: Syd, let me in.
me: *sobs* Terrell, go away!
Terrell: Please baby, I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I'm sorry.
me: Terrell, you are making me angry, go the fuck away before I do something crazy.
So, my all loving boyfriend decides to cheat on me with my cousin. What have I done to him? I'm I not good enough or what? What does Bahja have that I don't have? Or maybe she's good at just being a ho.e, giving away free blows.
I'm not about that life.
*continuous banging on door*
??: Sydnei honey, please open the door.
What the fuck? He brought his mom?
me: Ms Theresa, what are you doing here?
Ms Theresa: I'm trying to fix what you and my son had.
me: I can't do that! He cheated on me with my COUSIN. The fact that I saw him with my own two eyes. It broke my heart. *starts crying* I feel like I have failed to 'please' him. I failed to make him love me.
Ms Theresa: just open the door baby.
I opened the door and just landed in Ms Theresa's arms. All I did was cry. Just cried.
Ms Theresa: Terrell, look at what you've done to her.
Terrell: it was a mistake ma. I don't know what came over me.
Ms Theresa: Well you need to put ass together and stop shitting all over the damn place. Just acting like your damn father. I raised you alone to teach you how to respect women, and your're acting like Sydnei ain't a woman.
Terrell: I'm sorry ma.
Ms Theresa: be sorry for yourself. And besides, I'm not the one you should be apologising to.
By this time, I was on the couch. I wasn't crying, but just intently listening.
His mother left us, and he instantly came to me on his knees.
Terrell: Baby, I am sorry. You don't understand how bad I feel...
me: You should feel bad.
Terrell: *sighs* I really love you.
I stared at his face, like is this nigga for real?
me: nigga, if you love me so much, why do it in the first place? I mean, even if you were to cheat on me, why Bahja? My cousin?
Terrell: I don't know.I was lost. I was hella stupid.
me: did you have sex?
Terrell: erm...*coughs* ...yes.
me: *chuckles* The fact that I thought I was about to keep myself for you. Your a fucking joke.
Terrell: I was drunk.
me: just leave...please.
By this time, I had had enough. He didn't move an inch. He had touched my thigh, and I just stood up and was making my way to the door to show him out.
I don't know how fast he had gotten up from his knees, but he was able to pull me by my arms into him and kissed me. He was biting my lower for entrance,but I didn't budge. I stopped the kiss.
me: Get the fuck out. Kissing me right now is not going to help with this situation. Just leave.
Breana POV:
I don't understand Chresanto's character to be honest. One day he hates me, the next day he loves me and wants me back in his life.
The thing with him is that I dearly love him, since the day we started talking as teenagers, to the day we had sex. I never really gave up on us. But I am slowly losing these feelings because a). he's with Kimorah - I am not a homewrecker. b). his bipolarity or some shit like that.
And I also don't understand the deal with that Kimorah witch. Is she mad that I had his first, not one, but two children? *sips tea*
Either way, I can't wait for Chresanto for ever. I have to find someone else to cater to my "needs". I need someone that can act like a father for my kids.
I decided to call Zonnique to help start this 'man hunt'.
I called her once, and it rang to voice mail. I called her again and she picked up her phone.
me: Zo...
Zonnique's end of phone: mmhm, raaaaaayan. Ohhhhh, right thereeee....
I just cut off the line. I swear, those two are always like that.
I guess I have to do this alone.
