Poetry from a damaged soul

To let go or not

I'm so trapped in these decisions
And thoughts
I don't want to let go in fear that you will fall or get mad
Or maybe everyone around you will tap their fingers quickly on the screen shaming me for something that is already bound to happen.
But I don't want to be the cause, I just want there to be an excuse so I can go without it being my fault , because I don't want to watch you fall or post a million times about How it broke you , I don't want to look like the bad one for just wanting to be free from my guilt.
I am the sun and you are the moon, I die everyday to see you shine at night but I don't think I want that anymore.
But I will always still care.