My Bully Bey

Memories

Toni-
"Please Toni why can't you come home with us, I miss you?!" Tamar begs me while clinging onto my leg.

I look down on her with a frown on my face as I go over the past few hours. Everything was fine we ate, I talked to her about what was happening at school, she even played with Solonge. It was all going good until it was time for them to leave and she realized I wasn't going with them. Not this time.

"Monster don't do this please we already talked about this, I can't come" I say to her looking down at her. My heart crumbles as I see the tears spilling down her eyes making my own start to fall.

"But why TT?!" She asks holding my leg tighter.

"Because mommy doesn't want me there baby neither does daddy." I say as I rub her back soothingly but it only causes her to cry harder.

"Bur I want you there! And Mikey do too! And I see Trina and Umba cry at night and Traci argues with daddy everyday- Toni please come home!" She says loudly as her voice threatens to crack.

I pull her into my arms before walking down the stairs towards my car "okay Tay how about I drive you and Mikey home?" I ask and sigh as Mikey and Beyonce follow me looking at me like I'm crazy.

I feel her nod slowly before I sit her in the back sit "okay." She she says and I buckle her up before shutting the door. I turn to look at the angry faces of my brother and Beyonce.

"Are you crazy Toni, you want to go back there when they said you are never allowed there again?" Beyonce asks looking like she is more then willing to march me back inside.

"Yeah Tone come on you really don't have to do this she will be fine" Mikey says.

"I know but I want to and plus all I'm going to do is drop you two off and get my inhaler." I say before telling Mikey to get in, I turn back to Beyonce after making sure his door is shut "I will be fine." I promise before kissing her quickly and getting into the car.

After driving for a few minutes we reach the familiar street. A uneasy frown draws itself on my face and nerves quickly erupts in my stomach. I pull into the curb and turn off the car.

I reach for the door but I can't seem to get it open. Suddenly memories of that morning floods my mind. A door slamming shut brings me back to reality and I realize that I'm the only one left in the car. I quickly get out the car to catch up to a bouncing Tamar who reaches for my hand the second I'm near her.

After staring at me in concern Mikey opens the door and Tamar drags me in. I look around the small living room hoping to feel a sense of belonging, but I don't feel anything but hate. August was shoot there because of me.

Suddenly I'm pulled towards the kitchen by an overly excited Tamar.

"Come on they are in here!" She says excitedly.

I look over at Mikey who frowns slightly. If only she knew. We step into the kitchen and I watch silently as my mother and sister talk and cook. I used to be a part of that. Suddenly it's get quiet and I look up to see that while I was busy reminiscing everyone suddenly turned and noticed the unwelcome guest before them. Me...

Beyonce-
I pace the living room nervously as my parents watch me. She has been gone for so long, well thirty minutes but still. I'm worried.

"Beyonce you pacing isn't going to get her here faster baby calm down" my mother says firmly but I just ignore her.

"I am calm" I say before I hear the door unlock. I run towards the door only for it to open to reveal Bianca. I groan before turning back around.

"Um nice to see you too" she says sarcastically.

"Don't mind her she is just waiting for Toni" Richard says.

"Toni the hot girl from school?" She asks making stop pacing to glare at her.

"Yeah you know her?" I ask with a underlying warning attached to my voice.

"Yeah she is in poetry club with me, she is amazing" she says "she's coming here?" She asks.

"She's staying here" I say before picking up my pacing.

Toni-
"What are you doing here?" My mother asks making me look down at my feet.

"I-I need my inhaler and a few other things" I say quietly before clearing my throat.

"I could have had it sent to you to, wherever you live now" she says as she looks down at me. I feel my heartbreak because of how she is looking at me.

"I need it now...I almost had a panic attack" I explain at the confused looks I receive from my siblings. "Um I also need my EpiPen if you still have it..." I mumble. After a beat of silence she starts talking.

"What happened to you?" She asks making me look up at her in confusion. "You used to be the perfect daughter until that party, is it because of that boy-"

"Stop!" I scream at her infuriated that she could even think that "you actually think I like girls because I almost got raped?!" I yell at her not even noticing the person who just walked in the room.

"It can be the only explanation we didn't raise you like this!" She screams back at me.

I look down nodding before looking back up finally noticing my father who is looking at me with hate in his eyes "I'm just gonna get my EpiPen and go" I whisper before moving past them and towards my bedroom.

I open the door and the sight that greets me is not even a surprise anymore. My room is stripped bare, the pictures gone, even the bedspread gone. But I don't care about that like I should the only thing that I do care about is the inhaler and EpiPen that I left on the dresser.

After looking around the empty room I barge downstairs feeling my temper flare up. I walk up to my parents who are calmly sitting on the living room couch presumably waiting on me.

"Where is it?" I growl out watching as a smirk makes it's way on my fathers face.

"I threw everything in that room away Toni, now let's ta-"

I cut him off furiously "you bastard!" I yell making both of their eyes widen.

"Young lady I will not be disrespected in my own house!" He says angrily but I only get madder.

"Screw you and this house! I can't believe you would do something so spiteful and you!" I turn quickly towards my mother "how could you be so blinded by love to let him throw out your daughter?! A man who constantly cheats on you!" I scream at her and my father jumps up.

"That's enough young lady! Get out of my house and never come back for now on you are nothing to us until you change your ways!" He yells as he grabs my arm and pulls me outside.

I look back as I watch my mother and sisters stand on the porch and Mikey yelling at my mom to do something. I yank my arm away from my dads death grip and then to face him.

"I hope my mother finally gets up the balls to leave your pathetic ass, and I hope you rott in hell for everything you ever did" next thing I know a sting comes across my face making me tear up. He slapped me.

I stare at him in shock and anger before jumping into my car. I hear Tamar's cries for me not to leave but I tune them out.

I try to calm my breathing as I speed to Beyonces house, somewhere that I am welcomed, but it doesn't happen. I keep thinking about what just happened a few minutes ago. The slap, Tamar screaming at me not to go, the hate I felt. I notice the black spots floating in my vision as I feel my heart speeding up. Then it's dark, the last thing I remember is hands pulling me...