Truth is that I'm going to get my baggage, because it includes things that helped me be who and how I am today. Just like anything else in life, if I see that it's no good for me I can let go of it.
What I endured as a child, I long ago got over. What happened the assault in my adulthood, well I'm working on that. One thing I will always be is honest and true. Some things are harder to deal with than what others want to accept. But still it can be done.
When it comes to relationships, not ever been a hoarder of bad feelings towards remedial situations. I just know that I'm a great woman and that a good man will see that I am the absolute perfect one for him. Not worried 'bout nothing.
My teen-life and school-life was trying,but I'm sure there are a ga-zillion teenagers in the past or even right now that has something going on in their life that they felt was outrageous and unreal. Maybe they lost a fight, a pet, a mate, home...anything could've been going on. Not that I would wish it on anyone.
I wouldn't wish anything on another even my worst enemy , if I ever had one.
Losing my Mom was hard, but the baggage was moreso the bad choices I was making for myself and not remaining strong prior to and during that time. But I was stronger than I thought and took steps to get where I needed to be.
I just want to say that life isn't going to go as we plan, which usually is perfectly planned. There will be things that you go through yourself or see someone else go through and it is a sign , that hopefully you'll pay attention enough to be better prepared for what happens.
My heart is forgiving and people who know me personally likely wouldn't know that I've been through much in life because I'm filled with joy, the love of God. I don't blame anyone for what I've lived through.
I'm glad I experienced everything because I can make wiser decisions in my life now that I've been through it. When I see others happy and living prosperously, receiving their blessings . I'm so happy and supportive. It comes from my heart.
When I see people with their Mom's I smile in my heart especially because it's a beautiful thing. When I see people getting along with their Dad's I'm happy for them. When I see people living their dreams and doing what keeps them out of trouble I love it.
The reason I shared some of my life, is because I have come a long way and I don't want to illuminate anyone to think that I've had this life with no life experiences. Hoping to encourage someone who just went through something or is right now. Want to inspire someone who may go through something in the future.
If you have something that you're going through , have faith and do not give up. Remember that you are great and that even in a situation you can find some good.
Yes, I've had fake friends, lie, pretend and spread rumors about me. All I do is laugh because I know the truth about me and so does God. I've also been blessed with true friends, who'd not ever betray me and see my talents, skills and love me almost as much as I love myself.
To me these are the things that have happened to me that were most trying and I wanted to share it, everything else isn't as these are. I just am a private person and do not share much about me to people, just because that's how I am.
I am a fun-loving person, highly blessed and have lots of love to give.
Much gratitude for taking time to read a bit about my baggage.
God Bless, Shantae
