Words I Never Heard

Take The Pain Together

Raine was sitting in the floor with Nikki, talking to me while the baby played with her fingers.

"Raine... How much longer can we keep Nikki?"

Her head snapped up, her hazel eyes were looking intently into my brown ones.

"18 years sounds about right," she said, standing up and lifting Nikki to her hip.

"Raine, Nicole isn't even ou- your kid. You haven't even legally adopted her."

Raine turned from me and said nothing. Then, i saw her head lower in shame, and she shook her head.

"Jason, I know I'm being selfish." She turned to me, tears sparkling in her eyes and absorbing color from her blue hair. "But she is the last thing I have left of Ginger and Luke." The baby girl reached up and began to play with a strand of pink hair.

I feel like such an asshole right now.

I sighed and walked over to her, gently turning her to face me.

Nikki was hugging her arm and was yawning, a stand of hair still in her tiny hand. Raine was staring at the floor, tears running down her cheeks.

I slightly bent down to look her in the eye and lifted her chin. She looked me in the eyes as I gently took Nikki from her. My eyes never left hers, and hers never left mine.

Nikki fell asleep on my chest almost instantly and I turned to take her to her crib.

I placed her down, taking Raine's hand in mine and closing the door behind us.

I walked her to the couch where we sat down. Her eyes were averted to the floor, her blue hair falling into her face.

"Raine, look at me." She didn't even move.

I placed my hand I see her chin, gently moving it up.

She stared at me, tears in her eyes. "Jason?"

I never looked away from her. "Yes?"

Her bottom lip trembled and her voice cracked, "am I a bad person?"

I looked at her, and her eyes were so full of sorrow, the tears fell faster than I could react.

I pulled her to my chest, wrapping my arms around her small frame. "No, you're not a bad person. You're never going to be a bad person."

She began to cry harder, her arms hugging around my waist while mine were around her shoulders.

She began to speak in harsh breaths, barely even taking breaths. "I-I can't Jason. I'm a terrible person. Nikki should be with her family and I don't even-"

I released her and cupped her face in my hands. She just kept on ranging and crying. "Jason, I don't know how to take care of her, I don't know why I don't know, I don't know-" before she could continue, and before I could chicken out, I squeezed my eyes shut and shut her up the only way I could.

I kissed her.

I harshly pressed my lips against hers, and she stopped talking. She stopped doing anything. She didn't kiss me back, but she didn't pull away.

I pulled away, realizing she had gone completely silent.

Her hands were in her lap, her pastel curls resting on her shoulders. Her eyes were closed, no tears falling. But her head was leaned down.

She slowly looked up, her hazel eyes meeting mine.

"You didn't mean it."

"What?" She looked down again. "You didn't mean the kiss."

I shook my head, grabbing her face again, forcing her to look at me. "Why wouldn't I mean it?"

Her lip trembled again. "Because no one every means it. No one ever cares enough to stay."

I sighed. I brought her face to mine, and she allowed me to. I gently brushed my lips against hers, felling a tear slide down her cheek.

I pulled away, and she stared at me with her sad eyes.

I spoke, softly and gently. "Raine, you're strong. You're always there. You're caring, you're venerable, you're beautiful, you're trying, you're a fighter." I stared deep into her eyes. "And I love you for you."

Her eyes widened, and she let out w cry before wrapping her arms around my neck and hugging me.

"Thank you, Jason. Thank you for helping me, thank you for putting up with me," she pulled back to look me in the eye. "And thank you for loving me."

I leaned forward, closing the gap between us and kissed her. That kiss meant something neither of us could ever explain.

That kiss was our way of telling each other;

Everything's gonna be alright.

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