When I Was Your Man

We'll get through this

Four

March 17, 2003

When I found out that she was pregnant I panicked so I left the house to go for a peaceful walk, but that walk was far from peaceful. Questions like:Am I mentally ready for a kid ?Is she going to keep it ? Raced through my mind and I couldn't seem to focus. I went back eventually and she was a nervous wreck. I remembered her telling me that I didn't wrap up the last time we did it. I was schocked because knowing me I always did.

We argued for a while until I eventually gave up and realized that I had a duty to fulfill now. A child would be brought into the world and I have to be a parent now, it's time for more responsibilities. Even though more money will be spent I'm ready for it.

She was now three months and her baby bump was even now more visible than ever. She looked a mess but she still was beautiful. She ate more, got angry more but I don't care because I love her nonetheless. Her small hands were intertwined with mine while her head was in my chest. We were both watching reruns of criminal minds and I was enjoying every single moment of it.

She fell asleep in my arms around 9pm and I carried her to our room and cuddled up next to her. The next morning was another morning where she threw a fit. " you never pay any attention to me anymore! You're always in your phone ! What is more important than me ? " she yelled hitting her hands against my chest.

I took her wrists into my palms and gave them a tight squeeze. " remember I have to work in order to pay the bills and buy food for us. I have to work to make sure that everything is to you're comfort "
I let go of her wrists and she continued to yell, I sat there and listened to her arguing not saying a word. She needs attention so I'm giving it to her.

I'll give you all the attention you need

I listened and listened until she began to cry and I took wrapped my arms securely around her waist and rested my head upon her shoulders. " you need some rest " I whispered to her. She nodded her head and I walked her to our room.