When I Was Your Man

Disgrace

Eleven

October 23, 2003

She's still been locked up in our room all day and night. Ignoring both me and Xavier. Not even a good morning or how is he doing anymore. Xavier was currently with my mom since as I needed the day off and somebody didn't want to take him off of my hands for awhile.

I rose out of bed and rubbed my hand over my face. Janeiro was in her normal fetus position silently snoring beside me. I dragged my feet to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and washed my face.

" duke ? Where's X, I haven't heard from him in a while now " she said groggily

" if you haven't noticed he's been with my mother since Tuesday " I said rolling my eyes

" WHAT! you have my son to your mother? Without my consent ! " she yelled coming inside the bathroom.

Here we go

" Janeiro, I needed some time off and I would've met you watched him but you are in no condition to do so, I didn't want to put a burden in your friends nor mine, and your mother is a while different story " I chuckled deeply.

I felt a sting on my cheek and I looked at a furious Janeiro standing in front of me with tears streaming down her face.

" don't you dare, speak of that EVER! You don't know how it feels to have your own mother not want anything to do with you "

I was a bit taken back by her sudden reaction and I walked out of the bathroom and straight to the kitchen. She followed closely behind.

" say something you idiot "

" Janeiro, right now I'm fighting ever urge to hit you, so leave me alone and go back to being depressed "

She pounded her fist against my chest screaming a mouthful of cuss words. I grabbed her wrists roughly and pulled her towards me.

" Stop I don't want to hurt you " I told her.

She spit in my face and I loosened my grip on her wrists and went upstairs and packed my a small bag. I went back downstairs and grabbed my keys.

" When you learn some respect and responsibility I'll come back " I said grabbing the door knob

" duke don't do something you'll regret "

" look.... I need space and you need time to think, I can't keep going back and fourth with you, it's pointless and a waste of time "

I walked out the door and into my car, driving to who knows where. I didn't want to stay there and last out on her or say something that will cause her to leave so it's best to give her some space for awhile and give myself some as well. I need to think things out so I can make our lives to back to normal again.

How am I gonna do this.