Faded

Chapter 2

It has been a week since my parents died and for the second time, I'm in Dr. Shires office for my therapy session. I sat on the couch dressed in a simple white hospital gown while she sat on the armchair with her pad and pen. She wore a white blouse and a black pencil skirt paired with black Christian Louboutin heels. Her eyes were a grayish blue and her hair as dark as the midnight sky that along with her high cheekbones and her rosy complexion made her appear as if she was a form of a higher being, some sort of extraterrestrial that had somehow acquired human kinds best features.

"So Scarlet how are you feeling today?" Dr. Shires asks with a weary voice. "I hope that the last few days have helped you calm down and come to terms with the recent...events in your life."

She finishes her last sentence carefully as if expecting me to scream at her angrily, call her a deceitful liar, and possibly even throw a chair at her as I had done before after she informed me of my mother and father's death. I knew the truth but now it didn't make me feel any better nor did the two beefy security guards that had matching tans standing by the door.

They think I'm going to throw a chair at her again don't they? Unbelievable.

"I'm angry." I say with a steady voice.

"What makes you feel that way?"

"I'm angry because it was their fault. It was their fault that they died." I say with malice.

"Scarlet you do understand that your parents-"

"I know they were helpless and innocent but why would someone go as far as killing them if they were good people?"

"Innocent people happen to get caught in difficult situations at times. No one can please everybody there are bound to be people that dislike you no matter what you try to do to change that."

"That person broke into my house intentionally. What could my parents have done to anger someone to such a point that they had to take my mother and father's life to feel satisfaction for my parents actions?" I ask with my brows furrowed and my head tilted to the side.

"I know that you are going through a lot right now Scarlet and it's only natural to feel this way."

"You know how I feel you say? How can you? Have you ever seen your parents diminish in front of you only to be able to do nothing?"

"No. I can't promise that things will go back to the way they were but I am here to make things easier for you"

"I don't think things can get better" I respond firmly.

She sighs. "...I see. Now let's talk about how we can change this negative mindset into a positive one."

Dr. Shires begins to go through a list of issues I seem to be facing and telling me how I can become a happier and more positive person. I stare at the clock waiting for the hour to pass and I continue to nod my head in agreement. I choose not to argue with her as she would complicate things further. She believes that I need therapy but that is the last thing on my mind right now. I was doing perfectly fine without her until Dr. Shires appeared with her agenda of happiness.

It wasn't working. On the contrary, my nightmares increased after our last therapy session. The therapy session was soon over and Dr. Shires escorts me back into my room by pushing my wheelchair. As we arrive, two people are standing by the door of my room but I wasn't able to get a good look at them as Dr. Shires walks a few steps away from my wheelchair and then stops. She turns her head around and spots a nurse behind me.

"Nurse Alia, take Scarlet to her room and make sure that she is adjusted correctly." she says in a demanding tone. I hear sneakers squeaking behind me and then I hear the woman's reply.